4 days.

[samabraham]

I keep saying I can't be surprised by anything else. I should stop saying that, because it's as though I'm tempting God... and I really hate being on the receiving end of something like that. I can't believe that we're already half way through March, I KNOW, I KNOW... I was told by everyone and their grandma that it would go by fast. Okay, so it is, I get it!!! Geeze. I don't know, I have so many mixed emotions right now, it's hard to sort through them. My little purple friend didn't even know what to do for this one. My parents will be here in four days, which I am excited about. I can't wait to show them everything, and get to see some people from back home to remind me that, oh yeah, I used to live in a different country with different people and cars on the correct side of the road, haha. I guess I'm just reaching that point... where I gotta do some serious soul searching. And I'm not sure I can handle that. I don't know, maybe I'm not strong enough to take that good, hard look at myself... and perhaps I'm also not smart enough to figure out what I see. I had no idea, I really didn't. I thought this would be so different, but I guess that's why I signed up (even if I wasn't aware of what I was really doing)... I wanted the complete and total shock, to let go of everything, to get out of my comfort zone, and to be in a place where I don't KNOW which way to go. It's just something so different to actually find yourself in that position...
I guess I will figure it all out... ha, I kinda have to. My parents coming will be a nice break for my head, and it'll give me something to do other than just think everything through thousands and thousands of times.
Wow, what did I get myself into...