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I'm so mad at him right now. I don't know what I want to do right now. I'm so sick and tired of fighting with him and every time we fight he always tries to say that I don't think he's good enough for me and that I must want to break up. Which just... isn't true. It's almost like he wants me to leave him. Like he's trying to push me as far as he can before I get fed up and just end things. I just don't even know right now. He says it hurts him that I doubt his prerogatives, but it hurts me even more that he doubts my feelings for him. Why do I bother to tell him that I love him? He doesn't seem to believe it and since he doesn't seem to believe it, I don't want to keep feeding him lies.
God knows that I love this man, he is the single most important person to me right now. I would do anything for him and I want to be with him and work through things, but right now? He's making me seriously doubt some things. I just don't know what he wants from me and I'm starting to get real tired of fighting with him. And I can't say that I need time apart from him because that's all I've had the past several days and that's what is pushing us further and further apart from each other.
Now I just feel all depressed and don't want to do anything today. Maybe I'll just lie in front of the t.v. all day and feel sorry for myself. Yeah... that sounds like a plan. I'd much rather do that than be with someone who "isn't good enough for me".
God knows that I love this man, he is the single most important person to me right now. I would do anything for him and I want to be with him and work through things, but right now? He's making me seriously doubt some things. I just don't know what he wants from me and I'm starting to get real tired of fighting with him. And I can't say that I need time apart from him because that's all I've had the past several days and that's what is pushing us further and further apart from each other.
Now I just feel all depressed and don't want to do anything today. Maybe I'll just lie in front of the t.v. all day and feel sorry for myself. Yeah... that sounds like a plan. I'd much rather do that than be with someone who "isn't good enough for me".