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Well it's Friday evening.
And ooh man, I'm lonely. I keep seeing things that remind of how happy Amy and I were together, up until so recently...and I thought we had time...so much we could have done...
I keep asking myself "What went wrong?". And that's the thing - nothing really went wrong. So now we're left still completely in love, but off limits to each other. That's what you wanted, right? I guess it's all right with me - definitely painful, but it'll get better, and it's so much better than losing you completely.
I don't blame you now - it's really no one's fault that you stopped wanting me as a boyfriend. Well, it's my fault to some extent, but I can't let myself start thinking that way - I'm hurting enough anyway. Although I can't imagine how you're feeling - I know how terrible I would feel if I managed to hurt you as much as you have me recently.
But things are getting better, there's no question about that. Obviously it would have been best for me if we'd stayed together and happy, but that wasn't an option for you, so I think that this was the best way. We'll see. Right now I don't even care that much - life is life. Whatever happens, I'll deal with it, pain or no pain, live and learn, and just take whatever comes my way next.
And ooh man, I'm lonely. I keep seeing things that remind of how happy Amy and I were together, up until so recently...and I thought we had time...so much we could have done...
I keep asking myself "What went wrong?". And that's the thing - nothing really went wrong. So now we're left still completely in love, but off limits to each other. That's what you wanted, right? I guess it's all right with me - definitely painful, but it'll get better, and it's so much better than losing you completely.
I don't blame you now - it's really no one's fault that you stopped wanting me as a boyfriend. Well, it's my fault to some extent, but I can't let myself start thinking that way - I'm hurting enough anyway. Although I can't imagine how you're feeling - I know how terrible I would feel if I managed to hurt you as much as you have me recently.
But things are getting better, there's no question about that. Obviously it would have been best for me if we'd stayed together and happy, but that wasn't an option for you, so I think that this was the best way. We'll see. Right now I don't even care that much - life is life. Whatever happens, I'll deal with it, pain or no pain, live and learn, and just take whatever comes my way next.