living to believe
Once upon a time I was in love and relished the present. I lost myself in to me how great She was. My lover though was never happy with the now and she dreamt of tomorrows with a fierce hope and wondered where it would take her.
Now she is long gone, but the thought of her can make me cry once in a while. I don't even know why but it still does. I am like her now. I live daily about how my future will be. A path of hope or at least striving to. It so seems not worth it. Granted it motivates me to do great things so far, but I probably trade anything just to be in love in the present again. I suppose i should make an effort to date again. Even though people think i have.. I really haven't cared all to much. The thought of dating someone new makes gag a little bit. Mostly because the thought of my heart going through what I did really sickens me.
An old man once let me know how people stay together for so long. He said its easy.. They are both crazy about each other. So I suppose I must of been the crazy one. So for me it is that path again.... I suppose if you will it, it is no dream. Although lately I wonder if the dream is still worth it.
Now she is long gone, but the thought of her can make me cry once in a while. I don't even know why but it still does. I am like her now. I live daily about how my future will be. A path of hope or at least striving to. It so seems not worth it. Granted it motivates me to do great things so far, but I probably trade anything just to be in love in the present again. I suppose i should make an effort to date again. Even though people think i have.. I really haven't cared all to much. The thought of dating someone new makes gag a little bit. Mostly because the thought of my heart going through what I did really sickens me.
An old man once let me know how people stay together for so long. He said its easy.. They are both crazy about each other. So I suppose I must of been the crazy one. So for me it is that path again.... I suppose if you will it, it is no dream. Although lately I wonder if the dream is still worth it.