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I am up at this unholy hour for one reason my mom was afraid to drive the standard vehicle so in order for me to have the car i was woken and forced to drive to and from her school. There is four reasons why this hour is unholy: nothing is open, no one is awake and if they are there at school or work, i was up till two last night having some form of a mental breakdown, and four i say so. many mornings i would be fine with this hour but not this morning i feel i've hit a wall this morning not in my life there is nothing i want to do all i'd like to do is sleep but once i've been woken i can't get back to sleep, well usually. Home = Hell it's funny how i go back and forth on things soo much Vancouver for instance i was going for sure then i was unsure then i was pretty sure ect... Next year i'll go to school that will make me feel like i'm doing something hopefully that is a for sure i feel at this moment which really i've realized means nothing i can stick to nothing but travel plans trips make me feel alive unlike the drudgery of home life maybe i should move to new york like the Thumbsucker kid i just need to get out of my comfort zone arrg