w
i haven't said much of w here so far and think i need to make an introductory entry.
i went to w's friday night...was a little emotional beforehand...overanalyzing and hormones, i guess. and a little negative thinking. black and white thinking. worrying about how it may end...rather than enjoying it for what it is. until a friend online reminded me to not worry...but be happy. and so that's what i decided to do.
he's a sweet guy. an honest person. a great dad to a great college freshman daughter. a thoughtful lover. funny. loyal. smart. dependable. conservative politically and fiscally. likes rum and blackberry brandy (even though it tastes like cough syrup). italian. likes tropical vacations. childhood about as ideal as my own. his ex is also latino. mom lives here. dad was recently diagnosed with a terminal illness.
i'm more conservative with my emotions this time around. i'm ok spending days, like today, without seeing him. this is a good thing. he hasn't pressured me to talk about serious things. he did state his preference for exclusive dating upfront, and i, thinking it was an ultimatum, told him (sadly) goodbye, as i was not ready...and in fact, had plans to visit a friend in another state. but as a little time went on, i realized i can no longer date in parallel.
he's from central pa and has family and friends here...something that we don't have in common. i have a growing need for adventure--the antithesis of central pa...for visiting places i've never been. meeting people i've never known who talk in languages i struggle to understand (but smile a lot). eating food i've never tried. facing challenges i've never conceived. he wants to take a long trip to italy some day. he's willing to take latin dance in january--that's somewhat adventurous. he doesn't like mushrooms, onions, blue cheese, beans (that's all i know so far)...that challenges my culinary preferences a little...but i like challenges..and hope to introduce and win him over to new culinary experiences.
so i'll continue to enjoy life...which includes spending some time with w...spending as much time as i can with my kids...who are still my first priority...spending time with friends (though spending time with my closest friends is, for the most part, done online as they are not in central pa)...and enjoying each day as if it were my last...
i went to w's friday night...was a little emotional beforehand...overanalyzing and hormones, i guess. and a little negative thinking. black and white thinking. worrying about how it may end...rather than enjoying it for what it is. until a friend online reminded me to not worry...but be happy. and so that's what i decided to do.
he's a sweet guy. an honest person. a great dad to a great college freshman daughter. a thoughtful lover. funny. loyal. smart. dependable. conservative politically and fiscally. likes rum and blackberry brandy (even though it tastes like cough syrup). italian. likes tropical vacations. childhood about as ideal as my own. his ex is also latino. mom lives here. dad was recently diagnosed with a terminal illness.
i'm more conservative with my emotions this time around. i'm ok spending days, like today, without seeing him. this is a good thing. he hasn't pressured me to talk about serious things. he did state his preference for exclusive dating upfront, and i, thinking it was an ultimatum, told him (sadly) goodbye, as i was not ready...and in fact, had plans to visit a friend in another state. but as a little time went on, i realized i can no longer date in parallel.
he's from central pa and has family and friends here...something that we don't have in common. i have a growing need for adventure--the antithesis of central pa...for visiting places i've never been. meeting people i've never known who talk in languages i struggle to understand (but smile a lot). eating food i've never tried. facing challenges i've never conceived. he wants to take a long trip to italy some day. he's willing to take latin dance in january--that's somewhat adventurous. he doesn't like mushrooms, onions, blue cheese, beans (that's all i know so far)...that challenges my culinary preferences a little...but i like challenges..and hope to introduce and win him over to new culinary experiences.
so i'll continue to enjoy life...which includes spending some time with w...spending as much time as i can with my kids...who are still my first priority...spending time with friends (though spending time with my closest friends is, for the most part, done online as they are not in central pa)...and enjoying each day as if it were my last...