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So this is basicly a rant.
I'm tired of feeling emotionally drained by Jon. He doesn't give much, if anything back, in the emotions department. I told me today that he is working on laundry, that I can't bitch at him or he will stop. I told him if he does all his clothes were getting tossed outside. I have worked so hard to try to get the house clean. It makes it worse when I'm the only one cleaning, mostly the only one cooking, and then the only one who seams to try to work on this marriage. I say this cause I'm so tired of being there for him when he isn't there for me in the same ways.
Why do I put myself through this sort of roller coaster of emotions when it gets me no where but unhappy. I don't trust my husband, and question daily why I'm even with him. Wonder why I keep trying with him. Wonder why it even matters anymore.
All I ask for is love, respect, and for him to be there emotionally, but that seams too much to ask.
I'm tired of feeling emotionally drained by Jon. He doesn't give much, if anything back, in the emotions department. I told me today that he is working on laundry, that I can't bitch at him or he will stop. I told him if he does all his clothes were getting tossed outside. I have worked so hard to try to get the house clean. It makes it worse when I'm the only one cleaning, mostly the only one cooking, and then the only one who seams to try to work on this marriage. I say this cause I'm so tired of being there for him when he isn't there for me in the same ways.
Why do I put myself through this sort of roller coaster of emotions when it gets me no where but unhappy. I don't trust my husband, and question daily why I'm even with him. Wonder why I keep trying with him. Wonder why it even matters anymore.
All I ask for is love, respect, and for him to be there emotionally, but that seams too much to ask.