Not going insane.

[salophile]

I've been feeling sad all day despite having a rather good one. No classes, waking up late, going out to lunch and dealing with the minor annoyance of getting my laptop operated on (he's fine now), finishing up afterward with coffee, getting extra credit going into the theatre and preparing flats for the quarter's show-- nothing. They were all individually fun activities but I was sad all day. A small part of it is still feeling as if I don't fit in the department, still, but that's a subject that's Too Broad for Me to Think On Now and I'm doing my best to shelve it for when I'm not depressed and capable of working on a solution. Most of the sadness is, as opposed to the frantic, hopeless sadness of depression where you want things better now and are further upset by their not fixing themselves, just normal old-fashioned melancholy without any anger, free-floating like some kind of zeppelin moving to block my horizon. I hope it's floated away by tomorrow.

Well, this was an emo post. Another happy thing, I'm going to see Spamalot again today and I may or may not go to a Brand New concert next week (although not looks more likely, but no real loss either way).