.... LOST!!!!!!!!! Why Who Knows.....

[sallvia]

Have you ever just felt like you were going somewhere but didn't know where. Well thats the way i feel.. going in a certain direction with no idea why or how i got in that direction. Sometimes i just feel like i can't take life anymore, like its almost too much for me to handle. I wanna go back to the way things used to be when life was simple and i knew exactly how to handle every situation that life through at me. It's so hard to cope nowadays. There is just so much shit to deal with and when you really have no one to talk to ... it kinda just bottles up and is waiting to explode. No i'm not alone but sometimes i feel like i am. My boyfriend does go to college away from and that's not really what bothers me. It's the fact that this is the first time that i really have been away from him in 3 years. Im noting asking for sympathy and im not asking for attention. I just wish that he would just you be the way he used to be. When i knew he was soo in love with me that i knew down to the depths of my soul that he would have given up nething to be with me. Now it just feels different. Yea we still love each other and all but i just feel like we might have lost something but i dont know what. He tells me im annoying and i call him a prick. we fight over the stupidest things and i just feel like these little fights are coming on more and more than normal. I say one wrong thing and he goes off on me.. i just leave or walk away b/c i dont wanna yell at him for im afraid if i do fight back he'll leave me and then ..... well shit happens.

DarkSilentHunter [10:03 P.M.]: stop having crazy dream
DarkSilentHunter [10:03 P.M.]: s
DarkSilentHunter [10:03 P.M.]: you nutzo
DarkSilentHunter [10:04 P.M.]: I love you
DarkSilentHunter [10:04 P.M.]: you hear me
DarkSilentHunter [10:04 P.M.]: no one else
DarkSilentHunter [10:04 P.M.]: just you
DarkSilentHunter [10:04 P.M.]: only you
DarkSilentHunter [10:04 P.M.]: always you
DarkSilentHunter [10:04 P.M.]: forever
DarkSilentHunter [10:04 P.M.]: and ever
DarkSilentHunter [10:04 P.M.]: and ever
DarkSilentHunter [10:04 P.M.]: and I could go on
DarkSilentHunter [10:04 P.M.]: I and I will go n
RaspberryKoolAid [10:04 P.M.]: ok i got it
DarkSilentHunter [10:04 P.M.]: because I love you

god i love him just llil stuff like this makes me happy! im so easy to please.