protein overdose
Holy fuck.
I am so tired. It just hit me, like a wave crashing upon the ocean shore. I feel like I'm back on sleeping pills. And I haven't even taken them yet!
It was my iron count again. My doctor promised to call in a prescription for me to rectify the problem, but to no avail. She's done zip. So even though my iron count is only 8 (should be 12-15), I will take matters into my own hands. Since I don't eat meat, I eat peanut butter, drink powerade, take supplements. The whole lot. Boring, but necessary.
I have to take all my exams. Which equals out to be about four. And only two count, to be honest. They will all be a breeze. I figure that my grades are good enough that exams won't hurt me if the marks turn out to be mediocre. Besides, even if I didn't take them, I'd just be bored at home. Why not be bored at school admist the presence of my fellow Seniors? Perhaps see how far we can push the limits when it comes to stupid school rules.
Graduation is May 28th at 11am. I'm jealous of all of the others who've graduated before me. Damnit.
Josh, Alicia, Valerie, Geoff and Jarrod will be down here to celebrate (hurrah), and to whisk me off to Savannah and Six Flags in extended celebration. I can't wait. They are such a dynamic group. Should be fun breaking the law with them. Ha.
Jay went off on his cruise today. Cancun, the Bahamas, and whatever else comes along with that package. Not jealous. He said that he would miss me, but what do those easy words mean to me? Not a whole lot, to be honest. Why get close when I'm leaving in 2 months? Why get close at all? I'm just going to get fucked over. I know his history now. It would serve no purpose. I'd probably end up using him and that would only hurt in the end. Not sure how to explain that to him.
Saw Star Wars 3 Friday night and Saturday night. Saturday night I was by myself. It was a mission of mercy, to be honest. I needed to be alone. But by the way, I fucking loved it. I could go on and on discussing it. I cried horribly. It was so...much better than the other two. Lucas really did make up for his other mediocre first and second films.
And was it just me, or did Hayden (Anakin) get sexier as he got darker? To me, he just exuberated sex throughout the whole thing. What a change. Of course, that's not the only thing that movie meant to me =P
I broke. I called Peter last night. Good thing he didn't pick up though. I've just been having these awful thoughts. I feel like this is a mistake. How can I give up now? I can't even explain my motives to myself. I don't know what I want to do or what I want, period.
Finally called Joe. Old role player partner in crime. Pool buddy. Tease. Potential boyfriend. He hasn't changed. One of the few friends that I have in Michigan that didn't. I can take solace in that.
The Looking Glass melodrama makes me laugh. I can't believe how long it's taken for all of this shit to come down. I wish the weeds had been heard long ago. We could've all banded together as one.
Anyway. I'm finished. Too much writing. Preserving energy!
I am so tired. It just hit me, like a wave crashing upon the ocean shore. I feel like I'm back on sleeping pills. And I haven't even taken them yet!
It was my iron count again. My doctor promised to call in a prescription for me to rectify the problem, but to no avail. She's done zip. So even though my iron count is only 8 (should be 12-15), I will take matters into my own hands. Since I don't eat meat, I eat peanut butter, drink powerade, take supplements. The whole lot. Boring, but necessary.
I have to take all my exams. Which equals out to be about four. And only two count, to be honest. They will all be a breeze. I figure that my grades are good enough that exams won't hurt me if the marks turn out to be mediocre. Besides, even if I didn't take them, I'd just be bored at home. Why not be bored at school admist the presence of my fellow Seniors? Perhaps see how far we can push the limits when it comes to stupid school rules.
Graduation is May 28th at 11am. I'm jealous of all of the others who've graduated before me. Damnit.
Josh, Alicia, Valerie, Geoff and Jarrod will be down here to celebrate (hurrah), and to whisk me off to Savannah and Six Flags in extended celebration. I can't wait. They are such a dynamic group. Should be fun breaking the law with them. Ha.
Jay went off on his cruise today. Cancun, the Bahamas, and whatever else comes along with that package. Not jealous. He said that he would miss me, but what do those easy words mean to me? Not a whole lot, to be honest. Why get close when I'm leaving in 2 months? Why get close at all? I'm just going to get fucked over. I know his history now. It would serve no purpose. I'd probably end up using him and that would only hurt in the end. Not sure how to explain that to him.
Saw Star Wars 3 Friday night and Saturday night. Saturday night I was by myself. It was a mission of mercy, to be honest. I needed to be alone. But by the way, I fucking loved it. I could go on and on discussing it. I cried horribly. It was so...much better than the other two. Lucas really did make up for his other mediocre first and second films.
And was it just me, or did Hayden (Anakin) get sexier as he got darker? To me, he just exuberated sex throughout the whole thing. What a change. Of course, that's not the only thing that movie meant to me =P
I broke. I called Peter last night. Good thing he didn't pick up though. I've just been having these awful thoughts. I feel like this is a mistake. How can I give up now? I can't even explain my motives to myself. I don't know what I want to do or what I want, period.
Finally called Joe. Old role player partner in crime. Pool buddy. Tease. Potential boyfriend. He hasn't changed. One of the few friends that I have in Michigan that didn't. I can take solace in that.
The Looking Glass melodrama makes me laugh. I can't believe how long it's taken for all of this shit to come down. I wish the weeds had been heard long ago. We could've all banded together as one.
Anyway. I'm finished. Too much writing. Preserving energy!