I've got love and anger they come as a pair
So Mom and Dad are back from their trip, which is nice. Not so much for Graeme I think cause now he has to take the bus to work, but for me its good cause now I can come home and go straight to bed versus staying up and hour after my night shift so that Maggie can have some outside time.
Granted having them home is making me long for my own place again. Not that I don't love them, its just I have many habits that I prefer doing without anyone else around, ie watching multiple dvds or playing music and singing and dancing..not to mention cuddling my cats. The new cat foster is great and lets me come by and visit every week, but its not the same. It took forever for me to get Logan and Mona to purr last visit and that made me a bit sad.
On another sad note it seems that grandma Bell is dying, for sure this time. Long time readers will remember that she has been "dying" for awhile and even was suppose to die the weekend of my 23rd birthday I think (I'm now 26). I dunno how I'm feeling about this. Guilty, since I haven't been to visit her in awhile, that's for sure. Also sad. I shed a few tears today sitting by myself on the couch. It doesn't help that I had a truely upsetting dream about my Uncle Peter dying last night.
He's fine, but still, the dream was very real and upsetting and now this with Grandma. I'm feeling a bit stressed out to say the least. What sucks is working nights, I'm totally out of the loop for most stuff that happens during the day so it's kinda I wake up and BAM I get hit with news others have had hours to process and deal with.
Oh well, I really do Love my job so I guess that's okay
Other reason I'm kinda glum is that despite this being the computer age of instant communication, I seem to have been forgotten by people depsite the fact I've left numerous notes and emails. I haven't heard from Aleph, Randy, Kari, Pete or Terra. Let alone others back in Ontario who once claimed to be "like sisters" to me. I'm not mad, just kinda dissappointed. I know the time difference makes it hard. But I don't see how hard it could be to jot down a few lines and email them off. I'm probably just feeling needy due to all this death and whatnot. But at the same time, its hard to feel anything but isolated when you open your email and see nothing but spam and pointless forwards
Ah well, enough moping. Work tonight will be a nice distraction, not to mention I have the new issue of bitch to read. If Amy still reads this she should pick up a copy, there's an article about Wonder Woman and an article about Jem and the Holograms. Nice stuff
Granted having them home is making me long for my own place again. Not that I don't love them, its just I have many habits that I prefer doing without anyone else around, ie watching multiple dvds or playing music and singing and dancing..not to mention cuddling my cats. The new cat foster is great and lets me come by and visit every week, but its not the same. It took forever for me to get Logan and Mona to purr last visit and that made me a bit sad.
On another sad note it seems that grandma Bell is dying, for sure this time. Long time readers will remember that she has been "dying" for awhile and even was suppose to die the weekend of my 23rd birthday I think (I'm now 26). I dunno how I'm feeling about this. Guilty, since I haven't been to visit her in awhile, that's for sure. Also sad. I shed a few tears today sitting by myself on the couch. It doesn't help that I had a truely upsetting dream about my Uncle Peter dying last night.
He's fine, but still, the dream was very real and upsetting and now this with Grandma. I'm feeling a bit stressed out to say the least. What sucks is working nights, I'm totally out of the loop for most stuff that happens during the day so it's kinda I wake up and BAM I get hit with news others have had hours to process and deal with.
Oh well, I really do Love my job so I guess that's okay
Other reason I'm kinda glum is that despite this being the computer age of instant communication, I seem to have been forgotten by people depsite the fact I've left numerous notes and emails. I haven't heard from Aleph, Randy, Kari, Pete or Terra. Let alone others back in Ontario who once claimed to be "like sisters" to me. I'm not mad, just kinda dissappointed. I know the time difference makes it hard. But I don't see how hard it could be to jot down a few lines and email them off. I'm probably just feeling needy due to all this death and whatnot. But at the same time, its hard to feel anything but isolated when you open your email and see nothing but spam and pointless forwards
Ah well, enough moping. Work tonight will be a nice distraction, not to mention I have the new issue of bitch to read. If Amy still reads this she should pick up a copy, there's an article about Wonder Woman and an article about Jem and the Holograms. Nice stuff