The blahs
I'm in one of those moods where I'm consciously aware of time passing. Friends getting married, starting careers, and in some cases having kids in a not-scary 'omg wtf are you going to do' kinda way...
In some ways I feel separate from all that because I'm not at that point, but I still feel different than I did 4 years ago. I would like to say more mature. Part of me wants to skip the BA and just graduate next spring so I can get on with my life. Part of me want to write the BA and graduate in 2011 so that I can delay real life just a bit longer... Either way, I recognize that my time as a student is almost over, and I need to figure out who I am beyond that...
Maybe I'm overthinking it... but I don't want to pull my head out of the clouds and start stressing about finishing school, finding a job and a place to live, etc. Some things will happen, some won't. Sometimes I'll succeed, and sometimes not. Stress leads, paradoxically, to procrastination so instead, I think I'll just ride out the next couple of years as chill as I can manage. We'll see how long that lasts.
In some ways I feel separate from all that because I'm not at that point, but I still feel different than I did 4 years ago. I would like to say more mature. Part of me wants to skip the BA and just graduate next spring so I can get on with my life. Part of me want to write the BA and graduate in 2011 so that I can delay real life just a bit longer... Either way, I recognize that my time as a student is almost over, and I need to figure out who I am beyond that...
Maybe I'm overthinking it... but I don't want to pull my head out of the clouds and start stressing about finishing school, finding a job and a place to live, etc. Some things will happen, some won't. Sometimes I'll succeed, and sometimes not. Stress leads, paradoxically, to procrastination so instead, I think I'll just ride out the next couple of years as chill as I can manage. We'll see how long that lasts.