Time and Lack of Sleep
Things take time. I know this. It's obvious knowledge and it's common sense. But why can't I keep it in my brain long enough to stick to something long enough to see results?
Like diet and exercise for example. I know it takes at least six weeks to see any kind of results. But I still get frustrated on the first night of exercise when I can't do a rep right because I am so out of shape that my whole body shakes. Diet is about the same. I don't want slow and steady results. I want fast and obvious results that motivate me to continue because I see I am getting somewhere.
The whole thing of lacking patience applies to everything in my life. I have debts to pay off and there are things I so desperately want to have, but I know it takes time to pay them off and even more time for my credit to improve.
I want immediate satisfaction and little work for a lot payback. It's not logical and it's downright selfish, I know. But does that change the way I think? No. What the hell? I want to change this attitude, and I try. For about a day... and then I stop because I either get frustrated or I forget... >.>
I've tried reading a book on zen, but it hasn't helped change my mind set. You would think realizing a fault and a desire to change it would be enough to do it. But obviously not.
I'll tell you what shouldn't take time though; falling asleep. Not being able to fall asleep results in these strange journal entries.
Like diet and exercise for example. I know it takes at least six weeks to see any kind of results. But I still get frustrated on the first night of exercise when I can't do a rep right because I am so out of shape that my whole body shakes. Diet is about the same. I don't want slow and steady results. I want fast and obvious results that motivate me to continue because I see I am getting somewhere.
The whole thing of lacking patience applies to everything in my life. I have debts to pay off and there are things I so desperately want to have, but I know it takes time to pay them off and even more time for my credit to improve.
I want immediate satisfaction and little work for a lot payback. It's not logical and it's downright selfish, I know. But does that change the way I think? No. What the hell? I want to change this attitude, and I try. For about a day... and then I stop because I either get frustrated or I forget... >.>
I've tried reading a book on zen, but it hasn't helped change my mind set. You would think realizing a fault and a desire to change it would be enough to do it. But obviously not.
I'll tell you what shouldn't take time though; falling asleep. Not being able to fall asleep results in these strange journal entries.