To smoke or not to smoke

[saiyuki_goku]

I have been trying to stop smoking but this is reallllly hard. I don't even like the smell of my own smoke and I still do it. The doc has me on some quitting cigarette medicine, but it isn't working very well. I try not to think about smoking and then I end up obsessing about it. Has anyone smoked and quit? My mom smoked for a long time and then quit at about the same age I am. She has emphesyma now and has to live on oxygen. And I'm still smoking!!! WTF!!

Cigarettes are ridicously expensive and harmful, yet....why do I do this to myself.

I don't want to substitute food for it either. I wonder if I should get into one of those support group thingees.