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I don't know. It would be easy no one would really miss me just be shocked pretend they cared and loved me. God I just hate myself for letting down my gaurd. If I didn't try and change who I was (I thought for the better) but apparently that just made me a doormat. I am just so in love and I don't want be with out you because you make me laugh and I am addicted to your touch/body. I feel like a fool for giving myself so blindly and completely. I am broken, u could shoot or stab me and the pain would not be as bad. So maybe I think about death too much. I just hurt all the time I have nver had so much heartache. Literal physical pain, sometimes excruciating which is why I think death is better. Anywho I'm gonna try and sleep but all I could think about is how it felt for you and why you did it and why did you lie to me and say you were all mine when you aren't it is all about you. I just don't know what to do. I hate myself my life and I hate mostly everyone around me.