Wow it's been a while...
It's been over a year since i've touched this thing. Not suprisingly Steve has talked me in to posting in here. So here's the deal, I'm gonna update this thing, and then i'm going to post a revised version of that big long survey i did on here a while back in another post later today, and compare my answers now with then, and even add a few questions. so here we go...
I transfered schools... again. No I'm not playin', i really did transfer, this time to Fredonia State to study Audio/Radio production. I am dorming here... thankfully I have a single so finally I have somewhat what I wanted before: My room, my mess, my business, and all the things I own I control... no roommates, no mother, just me, and I love it. Don't get me wrong, the apartment was fun but god damn I am just a selfish bastard sometimes and well, i like it :) Yeah living at home sucks. My mom is the best but god damn i'm at that age where I just can't get along with her nearly as well as i want to. For those of you reading this that are my age, you understand how it is. My Dad... that's a big ol' other story. My Dad found God, and for the record i'm more agnostic and anti-religion than ever before. My Dad finds church to be fun and amusing and he's now like a minister or something. I refuse to participate onthe grounds that I just do not believe in Jesus Christ or the bible or any of this bull shit donate or burn crap. If religion is right, and if the bible, being the word of God, is 100% true then you must believe a man lived inside a whale for like 21 days and Noah had EVERY animal on Earth on that boat of his... ie. YOUR FUCKING RETARDED. I can't believe how gulible and stupid these people are. Then they say things like "well their just stories," um.. no, your faith is based on that book which is alledgidly true, you can not pick and choose what is and isn't like so many of these so-called christians do. A gay bishop was elected into the apisciple church, gays are sinners and not allowed in the bible... therefore christianity is wrong, or at the very least the bible is not the word of God because they have picked and choosed who can and can't go in. for those of you disagreeing with me, YOUR FUCKING STUPID. Don't even try to argue it because you will lose very very badly. Just sit there, nod your head back and forth, say "I don't get it" and I will see you in hell because if i'm goin there so are you fuck face!!!! My dad is one of these people, I lvoe him, he's my father, but finding God now isn't going to save him from the 2 divorces he's had, according to his faith anyway. I respect that he found something he finds worth while, but he needs to understand I'm not with him on this, and never will. Not because I don't love him, just because it's not who I am or what I believe. I don't ask him or anyone else to believe what I do, so he shouldn't try forcing me to believe in what he does.
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> ok, i'm done there. School is good, i love this shit. I want to be a sound designer and work in movies which would be super sweet because it'd be a lot of fun and make me rich. The fun part being much more of a concern. Money will come, I just worry about being happy and having a career, not a job. I think though i'm on the right track (finally).
I'm still seeing Renee which is good. Lately though I've been thinking about the future. How is this going to work if I am ultimately on the road most of the year with my job? I mean let's face it, I might be on the road 300 days a year or more depending on what I do. I for sure will not be living here and will probably go to california because that's where the jobs are. I love her, and if she's willing to try and deal with it then so am I. I just don't want her holding things up for me. She's a genius, she's going to be a phd in Psychology. Who the fuck am I to say wait for me and go where I go? I want to see the world and live my life, and unfortunately in all liklihood she will not be able to go with me on most if not all of my ventures. I want her to be happy, with her life and career and everything else, not wait for me and watch things happen. This doesn't have to be addressed now, but its food for thought that i've given her. I just hope she makes the best decision for her and ONLY her. That's who she must think about now and in the coming year(s).
I once said I wanted to become closer with Carolyn in that survey thing I did that i'm reposting later. Well I did. She's my best friend. We spent literally the whole summer hanging out, to a point where she could walk in my house at any time for any reason. It was very cool and I'm so glad I got to know her the way I did. Now she's at Cortland which sucks ass because its like 3 hours away and I miss hanging with her. She has a bf who, well i gotta be honest, I'm not fond of all the time. From my perspective, he is two sided, one second he is great to her and the next he's bein' an asshole, and not just someone messin around, he comes off to me like a real fucker. She loves him, so naturally I do and will support them. Its not my business, and who in the name of God am I to say who is right or wrong for anyone? I couldn't possibly understand their situation to the fullest, so i guess saying that i'm not fond of her BF is unfair. I will say this though, it's gonna take more than the navy to stop me from beatin his ass if he ever ever EVER hurts Carolyn. If she's happy though, that's all that matters.
Steve is a fucker. He moved to Florida and I fucking miss the asshole. He actually has always been and always will be my best friend, I know i just said Carolyn is, but that's because this retard moved to fucking florida where its a million times better than here minus his friends and family. In all seriousness I miss him more than I miss anyone else. He's my nigga, as hood people would say (j/k), we used to do so much shit together and no not sex ya pervs! hockey, cars, music, chillin, all that. Now he's gone and it really hurts because he's another friend to move away, only difference being he's the one that's mattered the most. That fuck. Oh well, i'm going to see his ass for thanksgiving break, can't wait to see him and go to south beach, it's going to be a blast.
I suppose I should say something about the real reason I got this thing going 2 years ago. No I have not talked to Maria Craver In about 2 years. I know for a fact she is not engaged anymore, making me officially a home wrecker, but other than that I have no clue. I hate her in many ways but miss her all the same. I'm not too sure what i would do if I saw her again, but I must say I'd be interested in finding out.
THat's all for now i'm spent. I'll try to keep this thing going from now on.
I transfered schools... again. No I'm not playin', i really did transfer, this time to Fredonia State to study Audio/Radio production. I am dorming here... thankfully I have a single so finally I have somewhat what I wanted before: My room, my mess, my business, and all the things I own I control... no roommates, no mother, just me, and I love it. Don't get me wrong, the apartment was fun but god damn I am just a selfish bastard sometimes and well, i like it :) Yeah living at home sucks. My mom is the best but god damn i'm at that age where I just can't get along with her nearly as well as i want to. For those of you reading this that are my age, you understand how it is. My Dad... that's a big ol' other story. My Dad found God, and for the record i'm more agnostic and anti-religion than ever before. My Dad finds church to be fun and amusing and he's now like a minister or something. I refuse to participate onthe grounds that I just do not believe in Jesus Christ or the bible or any of this bull shit donate or burn crap. If religion is right, and if the bible, being the word of God, is 100% true then you must believe a man lived inside a whale for like 21 days and Noah had EVERY animal on Earth on that boat of his... ie. YOUR FUCKING RETARDED. I can't believe how gulible and stupid these people are. Then they say things like "well their just stories," um.. no, your faith is based on that book which is alledgidly true, you can not pick and choose what is and isn't like so many of these so-called christians do. A gay bishop was elected into the apisciple church, gays are sinners and not allowed in the bible... therefore christianity is wrong, or at the very least the bible is not the word of God because they have picked and choosed who can and can't go in. for those of you disagreeing with me, YOUR FUCKING STUPID. Don't even try to argue it because you will lose very very badly. Just sit there, nod your head back and forth, say "I don't get it" and I will see you in hell because if i'm goin there so are you fuck face!!!! My dad is one of these people, I lvoe him, he's my father, but finding God now isn't going to save him from the 2 divorces he's had, according to his faith anyway. I respect that he found something he finds worth while, but he needs to understand I'm not with him on this, and never will. Not because I don't love him, just because it's not who I am or what I believe. I don't ask him or anyone else to believe what I do, so he shouldn't try forcing me to believe in what he does.
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> ok, i'm done there. School is good, i love this shit. I want to be a sound designer and work in movies which would be super sweet because it'd be a lot of fun and make me rich. The fun part being much more of a concern. Money will come, I just worry about being happy and having a career, not a job. I think though i'm on the right track (finally).
I'm still seeing Renee which is good. Lately though I've been thinking about the future. How is this going to work if I am ultimately on the road most of the year with my job? I mean let's face it, I might be on the road 300 days a year or more depending on what I do. I for sure will not be living here and will probably go to california because that's where the jobs are. I love her, and if she's willing to try and deal with it then so am I. I just don't want her holding things up for me. She's a genius, she's going to be a phd in Psychology. Who the fuck am I to say wait for me and go where I go? I want to see the world and live my life, and unfortunately in all liklihood she will not be able to go with me on most if not all of my ventures. I want her to be happy, with her life and career and everything else, not wait for me and watch things happen. This doesn't have to be addressed now, but its food for thought that i've given her. I just hope she makes the best decision for her and ONLY her. That's who she must think about now and in the coming year(s).
I once said I wanted to become closer with Carolyn in that survey thing I did that i'm reposting later. Well I did. She's my best friend. We spent literally the whole summer hanging out, to a point where she could walk in my house at any time for any reason. It was very cool and I'm so glad I got to know her the way I did. Now she's at Cortland which sucks ass because its like 3 hours away and I miss hanging with her. She has a bf who, well i gotta be honest, I'm not fond of all the time. From my perspective, he is two sided, one second he is great to her and the next he's bein' an asshole, and not just someone messin around, he comes off to me like a real fucker. She loves him, so naturally I do and will support them. Its not my business, and who in the name of God am I to say who is right or wrong for anyone? I couldn't possibly understand their situation to the fullest, so i guess saying that i'm not fond of her BF is unfair. I will say this though, it's gonna take more than the navy to stop me from beatin his ass if he ever ever EVER hurts Carolyn. If she's happy though, that's all that matters.
Steve is a fucker. He moved to Florida and I fucking miss the asshole. He actually has always been and always will be my best friend, I know i just said Carolyn is, but that's because this retard moved to fucking florida where its a million times better than here minus his friends and family. In all seriousness I miss him more than I miss anyone else. He's my nigga, as hood people would say (j/k), we used to do so much shit together and no not sex ya pervs! hockey, cars, music, chillin, all that. Now he's gone and it really hurts because he's another friend to move away, only difference being he's the one that's mattered the most. That fuck. Oh well, i'm going to see his ass for thanksgiving break, can't wait to see him and go to south beach, it's going to be a blast.
I suppose I should say something about the real reason I got this thing going 2 years ago. No I have not talked to Maria Craver In about 2 years. I know for a fact she is not engaged anymore, making me officially a home wrecker, but other than that I have no clue. I hate her in many ways but miss her all the same. I'm not too sure what i would do if I saw her again, but I must say I'd be interested in finding out.
THat's all for now i'm spent. I'll try to keep this thing going from now on.