otherways - late night aftermath
[hours after this.]
Sleep wouldn't come at all that night.
Damn him! Why couldn't he have stayed back in Boston, in his ivory towers of academia - leave Murphy the insanity of Milliways as a sanctuary from all those accusations?
"You're starting to act more like them than yourself!"
Because it was the only way to survive in that world, couldn't he see that? It wasn't like he kept living the role once the assignment was over, not like Connor and his non stop performance as the all-American boy, born and raised.
"Don't give me that, Josh. Your life is all about pretendin' ta be somethin' yer not."
When in truth there was only one thing-
(didn't happen)
blood and cards flying shots ringing out
(wasn't me)
smoke wafting lazily upwards
He buries his head under the pillow.
"Go home, Professor. There's nothing for you here."
(But Christ, I wish there were.)
Sleep wouldn't come at all that night.
Damn him! Why couldn't he have stayed back in Boston, in his ivory towers of academia - leave Murphy the insanity of Milliways as a sanctuary from all those accusations?
"You're starting to act more like them than yourself!"
Because it was the only way to survive in that world, couldn't he see that? It wasn't like he kept living the role once the assignment was over, not like Connor and his non stop performance as the all-American boy, born and raised.
"Don't give me that, Josh. Your life is all about pretendin' ta be somethin' yer not."
When in truth there was only one thing-
(didn't happen)
blood and cards flying shots ringing out
(wasn't me)
smoke wafting lazily upwards
He buries his head under the pillow.
"Go home, Professor. There's nothing for you here."
(But Christ, I wish there were.)