emotionally drained again
I just wrote a scene that was the aftermath of one of my female characters having been abused.
I feel very tired and drained now and a little bit guilty at having made up something like that. It is necessary for the story but still I feel awful right now. Almost like I was the one doing the abuse and I don't like how this feels at all. The next part of the story should be even worse, but I am pretty sure things get better for the two characters involved after this. You really do have to sacrifice for your art sometimes there is no question of that. I am literally sobbing at the moment, and my nose is all stuffy and I am developing a headache as I am typing this. Payment for my art I suppose.
I guess I should be thankful I feel this way. This shows that I could never abuse someone like this in real life no matter how angry I got. I should take some comfort in that at least.
I feel very tired and drained now and a little bit guilty at having made up something like that. It is necessary for the story but still I feel awful right now. Almost like I was the one doing the abuse and I don't like how this feels at all. The next part of the story should be even worse, but I am pretty sure things get better for the two characters involved after this. You really do have to sacrifice for your art sometimes there is no question of that. I am literally sobbing at the moment, and my nose is all stuffy and I am developing a headache as I am typing this. Payment for my art I suppose.
I guess I should be thankful I feel this way. This shows that I could never abuse someone like this in real life no matter how angry I got. I should take some comfort in that at least.