life again
so this is prolly (beth-ism)gonna be really long because i'm kinda depressed.
see, tomorrow i have the day off and i can't get together with any of my friends. i asked karen if she wanted to hang last week. she said yeah. but i get this mail tonight that says she made plans with her mom. that's cool and all, but i thought we kinda made tenative plans to hang. ??? i'm kinda sad and confused about that.
my other friend michele has been driving me buggy too. i invited her to a party and she said she couldn't make it due to headaches and pains from an accident she was in. but a few days later she was having a girls night out. ??? and she invited me!!! ??? she tells me she is cancelling her aol account but then sends me mail from it yesterday. ????? i invited her to go to a play i am in and she says that seeing matchbox 20 is more important. what the hell??????
why are my friends being so shitty to me lately?
next, i've been stuck here in kent for over 7 months and it's killing me. i'm a city girl through and through and this livin' in the sticks stuff isn't cool. kent state turned out to be a joke! so school is pointless and this time...i really don't need it for acting anyway. i just thought it might help. turns out it only hurt me. i'm working at the cooker. which is fine for now, but i feel like i need something bigger. i would like to get another accounting job but we might move back to cleveland. ??? so i do nothing during the days. i can't see my beau at night (at the cooker). this sucks. how much longer can this torture last? i feel like crying tonight.
i guess i'm just mostly upset about some of my friends i guess. i'm so good to them too. i don't get it. i'll lay off for awhile and see what happens i guess.
bed time.
see, tomorrow i have the day off and i can't get together with any of my friends. i asked karen if she wanted to hang last week. she said yeah. but i get this mail tonight that says she made plans with her mom. that's cool and all, but i thought we kinda made tenative plans to hang. ??? i'm kinda sad and confused about that.
my other friend michele has been driving me buggy too. i invited her to a party and she said she couldn't make it due to headaches and pains from an accident she was in. but a few days later she was having a girls night out. ??? and she invited me!!! ??? she tells me she is cancelling her aol account but then sends me mail from it yesterday. ????? i invited her to go to a play i am in and she says that seeing matchbox 20 is more important. what the hell??????
why are my friends being so shitty to me lately?
next, i've been stuck here in kent for over 7 months and it's killing me. i'm a city girl through and through and this livin' in the sticks stuff isn't cool. kent state turned out to be a joke! so school is pointless and this time...i really don't need it for acting anyway. i just thought it might help. turns out it only hurt me. i'm working at the cooker. which is fine for now, but i feel like i need something bigger. i would like to get another accounting job but we might move back to cleveland. ??? so i do nothing during the days. i can't see my beau at night (at the cooker). this sucks. how much longer can this torture last? i feel like crying tonight.
i guess i'm just mostly upset about some of my friends i guess. i'm so good to them too. i don't get it. i'll lay off for awhile and see what happens i guess.
bed time.