3 am
Wow I feel so happy! Still through my sickness which has begun to worry me, however I am feeling so Christmassy! I know the holidays suck but I love giving so much last christmas its like I had more money but I didn't earn it so I felt strange spending it you know but boy did I spend we're talking 250 on one person and then prices to match for others! Anyways my point is like this year I feel as though the gifts are more genuine becuse my headaches and sales and upt went intop these gifts every extra dime I have is going toward this christmas I want to have a giving christmas, I want to reach everyone, even those out of touch even those who don't care, because christmas though special is also the saddest time of year for it is now that we remember those lost, and those dead! It is now we recant for mistakes made, and plead the story to many of the greatest gift .....happiness, but for othrs to give what you have not, to dig where you have not, and most importantly to hold close those that hold you close and to love with everything that you have beacause someone loves you! No matter your person no matter your deeds someone sees you as you were intended to be beauty in the eye of its maker and music from your beating composer! Forgive and be clensed it is the time give that part of yourself away for christmas it is the greatest gift feel I have ever given to myself and truely to all those that have dealt with it anyway! Take a minute to greive those lost and plead that those who comfort you now forever stay at your side they are your dreams in matrial everything you hope for them is in their eyes and the potential is dieing to be lived, believe in what is and what can be most of all love! MERRY CHRISTMAS