wow I'm so happy
wow its so strange, to not feel regarding junior, I hadn't realized how angry I still was, I hadn't realized that anger is still a feeling. I feel as though this weight has been lifted off my shoulders I genuinly forgive junior I mean like really, everything that has been said or done is in the past and even if he looked me dead in the eye and apologized it just wouldn't effect my life, I think I was mad at him because I didn't get one but what I must remember is that I did however I thought it was bullshit but that was only an opinion he came to me last January, I wanted then as I do now for him to leave me alone, however it happened and during the last couple of days I have somehow let it and him go! If the game must continue it continues without me no more ill will or "angry face" though I would like him entirely out of my life I can't choose for others and maybe he really is the person they say he is, how could I possibly know? Junior and all others involved not that you have asked for or even remotely care to have it but my forgivness is yours! I am intentionally writing this on livejournal because my apprevious emails weren't responded to and this is the best way to ensure that this is read!!! Sorry about the openess! This mear truth may be the most honest and vulnerable I have ever been about this situation I would appretiate if this "post" was taken as all should know it is intended! As a side note regarding thursday of last week I openly apologize for my immaturity I sunk to the level I swore I never would that of "fighting" on someones front lawn, however just the cercumstances were it does not excuse my behavior. Though now through that I have arived here a trade off I would take any day I am only sorry that others had to suffer including steph!