disappointments are no strangers
I had so many disappointments in life i lost count. When i was in high school i was disappointed when my crush courted this senior girl who me and my friends thought a slut. One certain Christmas day i was disappointed when i received less cash that i got the year before. Every birthday i'm secretly disappointed when we don't celebrate it or i don't receive any bday gifts, but it's like that for like over ten years i'm used to it. I was disappointed when i thought i found a friend then that girl ditched me for another group of loud, ass-faced, feeling-God biatches. I was disappointed when i got really low scores on calls i was expecting to be good and i-ace-that-call call. Oh, and let's not forget the disappointments my parents always get when i was in high school. I guess it was even before that. I was really disappointed when i wasn't able to buy This weeks' special luxury last January in PetSoc. That kinda sucks.
sigh.
I could go on and on- but it still won't make a difference.
i guess life really is a mixture of good and bad vibes or feelings, or whatever you can call it. It's like choosing between a really fine box of See's chocolates and you just get it every once in a while or a really good bar of Cadbury's hazelnut chocolates that you can buy every week, without having to worry that you need to savor every morsel and piece because you'll get to have it sometime in the future.
whatever.
i'm eating Cad's today so my brain's kinda muddled. nothing like good ole' chocolates to make me go daft.
it's been a week now since i 'resigned' from ventus and took an exam for ebar, and since then been waiting for that call that, amazingly enough, never 'rings'. on one hand, it's the perfect time for me to settle again and bring back my normal life. but on the other hand, it's kinda like waiting for the answer from orgs ojt-style. i hate the waiting part- it gets me all jumbled up and anxious.
anyway, Pans said to just wait for it. And oh brother, am i waiting. At least i have the CCS exam to think about. Just bought a reviewer book, and i kind of felt a deja vu there, like when you're readying up for an entrance exam in college. Really weird. and then i remembered what a big disappointment it was for me not to pass that La Salle test.
So.
Just started Sex and the City season 1 and i must say, i wasn't disappointed. Harhar. Totally funny and liberating. What fun to live in the Big A and become like those women.
An epiphany. Disappointments are, sad to say, a part of life's treat-or trick. It doesn't happen just once but many times over. And i guess we just have to deal with them or we'll just waste a good laugh, or a sweet smile, or a nice hug.
P.S.
While trying to look for a really good quote to go with my crappy blog here, i came across this site: likemylife.homestead.com. and it's really nice.
Sometimes we don't get what we want. . But this is a benevolent universe. And once in while, we do. - Melody Beattie
sigh.
I could go on and on- but it still won't make a difference.
i guess life really is a mixture of good and bad vibes or feelings, or whatever you can call it. It's like choosing between a really fine box of See's chocolates and you just get it every once in a while or a really good bar of Cadbury's hazelnut chocolates that you can buy every week, without having to worry that you need to savor every morsel and piece because you'll get to have it sometime in the future.
whatever.
i'm eating Cad's today so my brain's kinda muddled. nothing like good ole' chocolates to make me go daft.
it's been a week now since i 'resigned' from ventus and took an exam for ebar, and since then been waiting for that call that, amazingly enough, never 'rings'. on one hand, it's the perfect time for me to settle again and bring back my normal life. but on the other hand, it's kinda like waiting for the answer from orgs ojt-style. i hate the waiting part- it gets me all jumbled up and anxious.
anyway, Pans said to just wait for it. And oh brother, am i waiting. At least i have the CCS exam to think about. Just bought a reviewer book, and i kind of felt a deja vu there, like when you're readying up for an entrance exam in college. Really weird. and then i remembered what a big disappointment it was for me not to pass that La Salle test.
So.
Just started Sex and the City season 1 and i must say, i wasn't disappointed. Harhar. Totally funny and liberating. What fun to live in the Big A and become like those women.
An epiphany. Disappointments are, sad to say, a part of life's treat-or trick. It doesn't happen just once but many times over. And i guess we just have to deal with them or we'll just waste a good laugh, or a sweet smile, or a nice hug.
P.S.
While trying to look for a really good quote to go with my crappy blog here, i came across this site: likemylife.homestead.com. and it's really nice.
Sometimes we don't get what we want. . But this is a benevolent universe. And once in while, we do. - Melody Beattie