the silencing truth

[safetocomealive]

today was one of those days where you have a lot of time to think. there's been a lot of random things on my mind lately. i remember at the very end of summer when all i could talk about was how scared i was to be away and make new friends, and what if i didnt make new friends, etc. moving up to santa cruz has given me such a different outlook. it's helped me see even more than i knew before how much i love my home friends. i can't wait to go home for thanksgiving and see them and hang out with them. but i'm also so happy with my friends up here. i have group of friends up here that is so awesome, it really makes me appreciate being able to go away to school and reach out to new people and stuff. they remind me a lot of my home friends in some ways, and in other ways they're different from anyone i've ever met. it's been a lot of fun. it's cool how there's always stuff going on, always people around to have fun with and stuff, but sometimes you just need to get away and be alone, and the dorms aren't exactly the best place for that. thinking time is often overshadowed by the millions of things i have to do and places i have to be. then again, that's kinda been a good thing lately, as i tend to dwell on and overanalyze things i shouldnt. there are so many things i'm unsure about...i dont really know what i want or if i even could or would go after them if i figured myself out. grrr...i can be so lame sometimes. seriously...very lame

i'm off to finish reading about the analects of confucius and stuff....peace out

<3 Jay