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i feel like i haven't been happy at all for 3 weeks. i don't even want to get out of bed in the morning. and being in memphis isn't helping. just when i thought i was starting to feel better i went with my mom and grandmother this afternoon to look at an alzheimer's care service for my grandfather. i thought i would get through it okay but as soon as i got home i called cristobal and couldn't even get two words out without crying. everything anyone says to me anymore just makes me more upset. hopefully finally being home tomorrow will do me some good.