napblankey
Dear Journal,
Fun week so far, visiting this and that, yet still mindlessly neurotic. My drugs have run out though so I hope to be over this problem, for now. Good thing too, seeing how anxious it makes me, putting irrational thoughts in my head of how I'm headed nowhere and nothing will ever be good.
I had my Christmas party with all the mason guys last night which was really fun seeing as it had been over a week since i'd hung out with them. Josh gave me Tekken 4, which looks so freaking sweet. I love fighters, it's basically all I have since I got PS3. Collin gave me Soul Calibur 3 (another fighter) and a Dragonball Z movie, which really took me back to my childhood. Keith gave me a book titled Hot Gay Erotica. You figure that one out. We just watched power rangers, played games, and caught up. Nice night all-in-all.
I'm getting involved with someone that kind of makes me sad. The person themself doesn't make me sad, it's the situation. He is already seriously involved/lives with another person who he's been with for several years. He's also ten years older, often making me feel not as worthwhile or even in the same realm. He's an incredibly nice person and makes me feel better than anyone else i've been romantically involved with, I just hate to get myself involved and invested in something that has rather slim chances of going anywhere. hrmph.
Trying to get pumped for morocco, need to do some serious inventorying and packing.
Fun week so far, visiting this and that, yet still mindlessly neurotic. My drugs have run out though so I hope to be over this problem, for now. Good thing too, seeing how anxious it makes me, putting irrational thoughts in my head of how I'm headed nowhere and nothing will ever be good.
I had my Christmas party with all the mason guys last night which was really fun seeing as it had been over a week since i'd hung out with them. Josh gave me Tekken 4, which looks so freaking sweet. I love fighters, it's basically all I have since I got PS3. Collin gave me Soul Calibur 3 (another fighter) and a Dragonball Z movie, which really took me back to my childhood. Keith gave me a book titled Hot Gay Erotica. You figure that one out. We just watched power rangers, played games, and caught up. Nice night all-in-all.
I'm getting involved with someone that kind of makes me sad. The person themself doesn't make me sad, it's the situation. He is already seriously involved/lives with another person who he's been with for several years. He's also ten years older, often making me feel not as worthwhile or even in the same realm. He's an incredibly nice person and makes me feel better than anyone else i've been romantically involved with, I just hate to get myself involved and invested in something that has rather slim chances of going anywhere. hrmph.
Trying to get pumped for morocco, need to do some serious inventorying and packing.