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[sadstrawberry]

i told him goodbye
i still dont think he understands
i still dont think he gets it
he knows that i like him, yet he acts like he doesnt
i cant do this anymore
i cant be around him not knowing
he says im just a friend
i cant do that
i cant be that
ive held on this long hoping for something more
but i feel like i mean nothing to him
and i cant do that
i cant even see him
i feel silly, and over dramatic
but it hurts
it really, really hurts
i cant do this anymore
i know the answer and i cant accept it, so i need to let go
i hope i can
for my sanity
because if makes no difference to him