...buh humbug
10x10 [p]. I haven't been writing alot in this thing lately. I haven't been in the mood until now. I went out x-mas shopping with my dad. I thought it was going to be a shopping for everyone else type thing. But nope. It was a 'all my dad has is a 20 and pick out what you want' thing. Yes folks, we went x-mas shopping for ME. I FEEL SO HORRIBLE AND SELFISH. My dad cant afford to even get his brother and sister anything. I hate x-mas. And everyone is all "Oh, igot you a gift". I cant give ANYTHING in return, i feel so bad. it is sad and rediculous. I am sorry to my friends, but i dont have money, my family doesnt have money either. And what turns my tick even more is that It is sitting in its house with 7 computers, a big screen tv, and surround sound (with a remote that controls every appliance in Its living room) AND IT IS COMPLAINING!!! Fucking It. You guys have to see the comment that KayBerry left in Its journal... FUNNY AS HELL AND TRUE!!! she put it in good words.(it being The FQ/Brakely) I absolutely hate x-mas. I try to have good humor about being broke all the time. Duct tape and Ramen. I dont mind it, really. If you dont have the need to spend money or anything, why bother? But now i feel i have too because of x-mas and what it has become. And i would say oh, when i have a family... we arnt celebrating x-mas" but even that sint possible in society. For example: Kids will make fun of my kids or my kids will wonder why they dont get gifts on the 25th of december and everyone else does. The whole thing sucks. Its not even about religion anymore even. Its just commercialized shit. Know what i got my parents for x-mas. NOTHING. My dad cant even afford to give ME money to buy HIM a gift. Last year, my mother didnt even give me a gift for x-mas. I dont care at all or anything... but it is just sad what x-mas does. It casues so much depression. What do i say when someone asks me what i want for x-mas knowing that they wont get anything in return from me. I sound selfish. "i want i want".