...no matter how selfish it is
i really wish i could have sen Rosy tonight. She made me carrot cake and i really need the cuddles. i couldn't get the car tonight though. Maybe tomorrow, i hope. Man i really wish i never went to the psych hospital. It really ruined my life. Fuck i wish i had Rosy here to cuddle with me. Awe here come the water works. My life is so screwed. i really hope Corri lets me have the car tomorrow.
i don't know what else to write. i'm not looking forward to tomorrow. i need to bring a check to the civic center and hope they will take it and not shut off my electricity. i wish Aaron's mom would have just let me pay over the damn phone. She wants me to get some sort of confirmation too. A number or something. She is just making this more fucking difficult. i still don't even know what i'm going to do about next months electric bill. i wish Aaron didn't use so much fucking AC. He is convinced it is broken and that is why the bill is so high. Then don't fucking use it.
i really want soda but i have none. i'm running out of peanut butter and bread.
i wish i could land a damn job. It's so hard to not think about suicide.
i don't know what else to write. i'm not looking forward to tomorrow. i need to bring a check to the civic center and hope they will take it and not shut off my electricity. i wish Aaron's mom would have just let me pay over the damn phone. She wants me to get some sort of confirmation too. A number or something. She is just making this more fucking difficult. i still don't even know what i'm going to do about next months electric bill. i wish Aaron didn't use so much fucking AC. He is convinced it is broken and that is why the bill is so high. Then don't fucking use it.
i really want soda but i have none. i'm running out of peanut butter and bread.
i wish i could land a damn job. It's so hard to not think about suicide.