...picking me up from school?
Well. It came out today that Bri smokes. Fucking whatever. I try to be a fucking friend and show her that i care and she just fucking ignores me away and "shew's" me away. I fucking hate this. Both. 1. How people just dont give a shit. they go on about how no one cares, then pulls a stupid thing like this, and hurt all the peopel that do care. I dont want to bother anymore at all. Why care? So thi sshit can happen. I get to watch my mother die of smoking, why not watch a few friends too. Hell, I never even got to meet my gradfather... he died when my dad was 8. of a horrible death i must say. he had a hole in his throat. And yous hould see my mom, she is only 36 and she looks 60 and coughs ever 6.3 seconds. 2. FUCK YOU!!! I try to be your fucking friend and you just keep ignoring me. I am tired of going up to YOU all the time and trying to talk to YOU all the time and get nothing. Fine then, I will fuck off and not bother. If i kill myself, it would be because of everyone else., it really would. Hell, i felt bad when chris first shop-lifted at AC Moore. I am so pissed. ewhere is Angela, where is anyone? Why cant someone just come over, hug me, then tell me evrything is alright? And if that happened... Why can ti believe them? This all sucks. Things like this hurt me so bad, even if i am not that great of friends with them. I just hate it. I always lose best friends becaus eof this stupid un needed shit. What am i saying. I used to smoke pot! because hell, my friends were, why not me? Well it is fun dying afyter running 2 feet and it is fun saying thing slike "oh, whats the word" or "damn, i forgot what word it was" becasue i forget half og my vocabulary. SO fuck everybody. Im not caring anymore about anyone but my fucking self because no one appreciates it and no one realizes. And Bri, iwanted to be myour friend, but fucking you dont seem to really care or want to be friends. so fuck that too. I am soo fcuking pissed right now. goddamn it. I cant believe i even tried to be friends. I just get ignored all the time. We are more of friends online. GRrr. It is so much easier just not caring so i dont have to watch these people suffer and I get hurt. I was so much better off when i left bryan. Now he can ruin his life...and i am not effected as apposed as if i stayed his best friend while he ruined his life. I am going to shut up now. Angela...Call me about tomorrow when you get home or whatever.