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So today was just one of those days where it seemed I was the only one at home without a life. The kind in which no one is online or anything. We have yet a new person living in our household. it is as if my male parental unit is trying to find as many random people to live in our house as possible. I would have been just fine with just me and father. No privacy or anything. This new guy is ugly and sings alot and HE HAS MY OLD ROOM!!! My old sentimental room and it has been re-painted. now it has. now that I have moved out from it. As if we need more people using the phone, taking a shower, and eating food... we have a hard enough time going food shopping. I need to get out of here. I moved my newer room round so now it is bigger. I had to move it around, the old arrangement was too cramped and reminded me to much of someone. that may seem weird, but I moved arranged it in a certain way for certain reasons which remind me of this certain person and other things.
It was said to me that I can still be straight edge if I promise myself never to do it again. Or something to that extent. I don't know though. That just isn't right of me.. That is something a Disney channel kid (poser) would try to do to fit into more than one crowd. I believe the saying is "Strait Edge: If you weren’t once, You never were" or "if you weren’t before, you never were". Something like that. I don't even know why I am discussing this. Now I am just being any hypocrite and putting labels to things and upon myself. Sharpies Rule!
Hmm. 5x04. I believe me and Seed had arrangements after she was thru with work. Or something like that. My eyes were such a great color earlier. I would have taken pictures but my camera sucks and I didn't feel like taking pictured of myself. They were like .. I can't describe it. A wonderful shade of blue then it turned into like a perfect green. It was amazing. If I don't get cable internet back soon, I am going to have a conniption. SHIT! I have to study for a vocab quiz on Tuesday. Damn it all.
I need a new icon. :( I am too lazy though. I think it is raining. Yap, So no one is online. I suppose everyone is off having funn. That is cool though. I would rather my friends be entertained than me. yap. I watched The Hours finally. I got it on DVD a while ago. Wow, it is really starting to
Garbage -x- Happy When it Rains
I'm only happy when it rains
I'm only happy when it's complicated
And though I know you can't appreciate it
I'm only happy when it rains
You know I love it when the news is bad
Why it feels so good to feel so sad
I'm only happy when it rains
Pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me
Pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me
I'm only happy when it rains
I feel good when things are going wrong
I only listen to the sad, sad songs
I'm only happy when it rains
I only smile in the dark
My only comfort is the night gone black
I didn't accidentally tell you that
I'm only happy when it rains
You'll get the message by the time I'm through
When I complain about me and you
I'm only happy when it rains
Pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me
Pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me
Pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me
Pour your misery down
You can keep me company
As long as you don't care
I'm only happy when it rains
You wanna hear about my new obsession?
I'm riding high upon a deep depression
I'm only happy when it rains
Pour some misery down on me
I'm only happy when it rains...
Pour some misery down on me
I'm only happy when it rains...
Pour some misery down on me
I'm only happy when it rains...
I love the rain. If it weren’t for the fact that I am sick, I would go run around naked in it. Exposing myself in the rain. Interesting. Okay, maybe I am not all that great when it rains. I get the most lonely when it rains. it is raining, I’m all stuck inside, want nothing more then to hold someone and watch TV while huddled under a comfy blanket while drinking Tea. *sigh*.
So being friends with Bri is going along okay so far. I think things are still hard for her though. She doesn't really talk to me, only when she kind of has too. Like if I ask her a question or say "hi" or something. But nothing like stopping me in the halls to say "hi" to me or anything yet. She still seems to kind of ignore me when she can...well maybe not ignore me...but...I forget the word. Whatever. I am fine with it if she is. I just want her to be happy, that is all. Maybe I should kind of cut it out a bit. Maybe I am pushing the "friendship" boat a bit to hard. I should give her more space. That is exactly what I need to do. I try to say 'hi" too much and talk to her too much, She has other friends she would rather talk to besides me, I should know that. I just installed the new AIM Beta! Woo HOO
Right now I would be saying "WOO HOO" because it is thundering.... But Now I feel really lonely. I want that thing I mentioned earlier... Or at least someone to talk to on the phone right now...or even online. Wow! The new AIM Beta is soo ghetto! It has this new random Games button on my buddy list and my DeadAIM isn't as compatible with as I had hoped. It is compatible.... just the new aim kind of has the DeadAIM features now. some of them. KILL! Hm. Wow. The new AIm Beta actually has a good variety of FUN GAMES! They have puzzles and 2 or 3 arcade games. You can play with people on your buddy list. It is much more simple than the old way of trying to play like Hearts on AIM. Some of the games can be played by yourself too! That is perfect for me! You just need to update your Java thing to the WildTangent thingie. It is a web driver. Ramble RAMBLE!!!!
I finished Matts shirt. I put holes in the sleeves and threaded the edges so it looks nice and the whole won't get bigger or tear. This is a long entry so I am going to finish now. if anything comes up I will update.