Unfinished fics. :(
These have been sitting in my comp for awhile now. Usually I would get somewhere after re-reading what I had so far but these really weren't going anywhere. So after posting them today, I won't look back at them anymore.
WHOEVER
I watch as my body lay next to yours, cold and lifeless. I step closer, watching as your chest rise and fall with each breath you take. You're so beautiful. Reaching out, horror as well as realization struck through me, watching as my fingers phase through your face. I can't touch you. Scared, I stumble back, falling over nothing as I land on the hardwood floor. No sound was heard from my fall, nor did it hurt.
Scrambling over to your side, I call your name over and over again, trying to wake you up. Pleading for you to save me, to tell me everything'll be okay, that you're here, that I'm still here. You hear nothing. I could feel myself crying but my tears never reach you. I don't know how long I cried into the dry sheets before I see you stir.
I panicked, I ran out the room, no longer wanting you to find me dead. To see your reaction, I won't be able to handle it. As I phased through the front door, I could hear you screaming my name, asking me to wake up. I could feel your warm hands shaking, your tears running down my skin. Even as I am out of the apartment complex, I could feel everything clearly. My heart clenched tightly. I must still be alive if I could feel your pain right?
My eyes are playing tricks on me. I'm seeing things that were never there before. It's like the home I knew is different now. There's no cars driving, only people walking aimlessly. I'm scared. Is that what I'll become? I turn around, needing your presence but I no longer recognize where I am. This isn't the Tokyo I know.
How do I get home from here? Please come find me. I'm scared.
Once again I'm running. I call out for your name and run through the crowd. No one cares. They just keep walking in their own direction. I scream your name again, as hard as I can before curling up on the ground. Why is this happening?
Your voice haunts me now. I can hear no one but yours. But all you do is cry now, nothing else. I don't want to hear it anymore but I cling to your voice because I'm scared I'll never hear anything else from you. I fall into the crowd, walking as I wish this hell would be over with. I wonder what everyone else hears.
2PM + Jay Park
Though they were busy with their Japanese promotion, they somehow found time to watch Musicbank that day. All 6 of them sat there, sitting in front of the laptop, waiting nervously. It was almost his turn.
The whole group had mixed feelings, from day one until now, there was still many unresolved issues. They all managed to cope in their own way since their leader was no longer there to show them the way.
Instead, he was representing something that was not 2PM as he sang and danced on the stage. Park Jaebum was no longer part of them, his actions would not reflect back to them, he was his own separate entity now. If he failed, he was failing on his own.
Yet the members still sat together, watching his performance. Different emotions ran through each of them. Jealousy, pride, awe, sadness, happiness, nostalgia. They all thought about their first stage without him, now, they wondered how he felt, being on stage on his own.
When the clip was over, the tension filled the air. Jay, even after 2 years was still a sore topic to talk about, even with their own members. Silently, one by one each excused themselves. Thoughts filled with the past, present, and future of 2PM.
Only Chansung was left sitting there, watching the rest of the show. He couldn't help but smile for Jay when he won. Even if he wasn't part of 2PM now, he played an important role in their past. Though things weren't how they foresaw it.
II
With each step he took, his feet grew heavier and heavier. He didn't want to tell them the news, that he was leaving. He was disappointed in himself, how things have turned out. But he knew he owed it to the rest of the group, to hear what he had to say instead of the manger telling them,
Ikuta Toma
The cool night wind blew in his face as he closed his eyes, wondering how he got here, to this point in life. His legs dangled from the edge of the rooftop, swinging them back and forth as he waited for his friend, knowing his threat had worked, only because he was half serious. He did want it all to end. It was so easy, all he had to do was jump. It didn't matter who he was, idol or some random kid. No one escaped death.
His ringtone pierced through the silence. It was his manager, calling him to update tomorrow's schedule. His head bobbed to the music, not bothering to pick up. Before he knew it, he was humming to the ringtone, it was one of his favorite cartoon theme song. If anyone could see him now, they would probably think he's drunk. He kind of wish he was. 'Cept not really, because he might say or do something he'll regret. And, knowing him, he ALWAYS regret, even if he never showed it.
Hyuna ( this was an intro to a series mutant series)
Growing up in an orphanage can be an interesting experience. Like everyone else, I made friends and enemies, though the difference is that a lot of those kids got adopted at one point or another, and well that's the end for those bonds. I'm no exception to that. I was adopted when I was about ten years old to Kim Taehyo and Kim Minah. They were great to me, buying me whatever I wanted. You see, they couldn't have kids of their own. After so many years of trying, they decided to finally adopt. And I was the lucky little girl they chose. They treated me like a princess. If it seemed like I was interested in something, they never hesitated to buy it, even if I didn't ask for it.
That only made my guilt grow. I couldn't tell them that I was defected. That night before I was to be picked up and moved to their house, I wished for someone to protect my best friend while I was gone. A weird flash appeared in my hand and a creature was there, promising me that he'll protect her. Of course I screamed and freaked out, waking up a lot of the other kids and our caretaker. But the creature was gone and everyone was positive that it was just a nightmare, they told me it was my nerves. It wasn't.
After I had moved in with my new family, several other times these creatures appeared around me. It seemed like they were just randomly appearing but looking back now, I think I unknowingly summoned them. They all looked different. Some spoke, some didn't. But all of them somehow understood what I was saying, what I wanted. They genuinely cared about me. Even so, I couldn't tell anyone about them.
Finally having parents was great, going to school wasn't. It didn't take long for people to know I was adopted. The little poor orphan girl living mooching off of this wealthy couple. It was hard to make friends at school. It almost shocked me how much I missed the orphanage, even the people I didn't like there. They all seemed so much better than these kids, who grew up with everything and took everything for granted. But that's not how their life truly is. No matter how rich or poor you are, you still have problems. And I'm pretty observant. People talk, their actions and attitude all tell a story. And I've learnt to spot these details and pin people against each other. Before it was a defense mechanism, to turn people against each other to get them off my back. Now, it's like a game to me. A lot of people say they trust their friends but right when something comes up, their the first to point their fingers at the one beside them.
Hyuna (HP verse: Daughter of Cho Chang)
While everyone else aimed for Hogwarts as a kid, Hyuna wanted to go Beauxbatons Academy of Magic. Hogwarts may have been a castle but Beauxbatons was a palace, more modern and chic. She didn't tell her parents that of course, afraid of disappointing them. And it wasn't even certain that'll she even get into either school. But deep down inside, she longed to wear that beautiful blue silk uniform than that black robe. When the acceptance letter came, Hyuna wore a fake smile as her parents cheered loudly, proud that their daughter had gotten into Hogwarts, just like her older sister, carrying on the family tradition. Great, because that's just what she wanted, to live in the shadow of her family members.
It wasn't that she hated her family, she actually loved them very much. It's just that her mother was known for dating not only Cedric Diggory during her school daybut Harry Potter as well. Yes, the Harry Potter. Not only that, her mother also was seeker for the Ravenclaws while maintaining her good grades. Her older sister was exactly like their mother, physically as well as personality wise. Both were such social butterflies. Sohee too took after her mother's features but her personality was more similar to her fathers. Her sister was more like daddies little girl while she was the son her father never had. While everyone in her family were quidditch fanatics, she didn't care for the sport very much. She would must rather spend her time doing something more interesting.
With her sister and mother so similar, Hyuna couldn't help but feel like an outsider in her own home. Sure she had her father to rely on but there was only so much he knew about being a girl, which wasn't very much. She never voiced her insecurities to her sister or her mother though, she didn't tell anyone actually.
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Dear Diary,
Today I started a new chapter in my life. I'm finally attending school, away from home and my parents. Sister is still here though so the transition wasn't so horrible. She sat with me on the train even though I didn't need her to. I didn't want the other kids to think that I needed a baby sitter around. Because I don't. I can very well take care of myself, I am almost an adult now. But secretly, I'm glad my sister was there, I was kind of nervous that I wouldn't find a seat and would end up being alone.
Hogwarts is everything my family said it would be. Blah blah blah. If it's so grew than why does my heart still long for Beauxbatons? I wonder if it's possible to transfer…
My room is quite nice, we even need a password to get into the section designated only to Ravencaws. It's a riddle! But I won't write it in here… just in case someone ends up finding this. I can't help but think it made the wrong choice, I'm not smart I am sharing it with three other girls which is quite fun and interesting. So this is what it's like to live with other people… I just hope that we'll all get along.
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Dear Diary,
DKLSFKLDHLKGDKLSGHDSLK. I met the rudest boy ever today! While walking to class with my friend, we bumped into this guy, it was his fault. But he started yelling at his, calling me blind and that I should watch where I was walking. Did I mention that….. IT WAS HIS FAULT! What a jerk. Good thing I don't have any classes with him, I would hate to see how he's in the classroom. Hopefully for the next 5 years, I won't ever have to see him again. Or if I do, I hope he trips or does something absolutely embarrassing so I can laugh at him. -_-
Dear Diary,
Today was the most embarrassing day ever. I was eating too fast and ended up choking on some food. I don't remember who but someone did the helmlech maneuver thing.. and the food ended up on the cute guy I've been eyeing. I think I can die of embarrassment now.See.. if I went to Beauxbatons, this wouldn't have happened.These have been sitting in my comp for awhile. Usually after re-reading some things, I would get motivation to finish it but for some reason I can't with these. After posting it on my lj, I'm going to stop trying to attempt at finishing these.