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I am not feeling as worried anymore... i'm alright with things, we talked we didn't even argue we discussed things and things are alright now. Things have calmed down yeah he over reacted to a few things such as me not going out there and yeah it was my choice in the end but i didn't want to come home just so i could pack my bags and leave on a bad note with my parents. Dad isn't doing too well and i think if i went after the arguement we had that night i don't think he would be sitting around at home at the moment. I respect them, they have given up alot to give me what i want and in some ways i am spoilt but in other ways i'm just lucky. My family doesn't really act like a family, we're not as close as the ideal family but then i don't mind we all know we love each other.
I'm a bit sad that i'm sitting at home on a friday night i should be doing something i wanted to take mum n dad out to the pub but they didn't want to go so yeah and i didn't want to go into town without my boy cos yeah i can hear the stories start even before i do. so a quiet weekend might be just what i need.
going fishing one day this weekend, dad bought some worms, but i don't know how i'm going to go trying to put them on a hook. they squirm... icky... but i guess i'll be fine...
hmmm quiet weekend at home with the family well unless i go into town to study... which i might but yeah... at least i'm not feeling bad or feeling like i have upset anyone with the choices i've made...