Sit and discuss.
I want to learn more and more and more and that is where my drive is at right now. I can see the difference it has had on my life versus so many others that unfortunately I`ve had to observe everyone around growing up and walking different paths. I know what I want for myself and I recognize all of my ambitions and I keep asking myself lately if I`m even ready to give a part of myself to someone else...
I dont think that something that intricate and that complex should be for just anybody. That person has to prove it in some way or another and as it stands... I`m not sure if I`ve met that person yet. I`m not sure if it`s wise of me then, to continue to pursue anything if I myself am not sure if I`m in the right place. I`ve been in too many positions of feeding and feeding myself away and not getting anything back. .. Only this time I really would rather not see myself fall into the same pit once more. This is about me, for once and I`m not going to turn it into anything other than that.
I`ve learned in my life that in order to get up and keep going I have to be selfish is certain areas.. This is no exception and it can`t be. I have to be brave enough for myself to check in and understand what`s going on...
I have to take my life into consideration and not put anything in front of it because god damn... I am so fucking tired of doing everything but that.
It`s time for me to thrive and I`m not going to let somebody bring me down. Nor do I think I want to wait for anybody. No. I really don`t. I`m sorry.
I`ve used the word 'love' around so many which ways that I`m not sure anymore what kind of love I`ve ever given away. I don`t know if it was real or not. And I don`t want to focus on that right now.
Something like that is earned not given. Seriously.
I think I care more about being figured out than anything else. And if someone wants to lose me and play that game, then so be it. Lose me.
I have yet to prove whether that works or not. And I`ve conditioned myself to somewhat be fine with never finding out whether I`ve impacted anybody or not. It matters little to me.
Identity.. Identity.
I don`t know.
Would any of you say that I`m pretty solid on knowing who I am? Do I carry myself strongly or do I lack that self-responsibility?
Or do I know myself too well to the point where I am bored emotionally?
I feel that sometimes knowing what you need can be a drag in of itself because knowing what you needs means that sometimes that need cannot ever come from you alone and you must rely on something else to acheive it.
Well then.
Dilemma. Por Favor.
Don`t you Evah - Soon Lyrics
Bet you got it all planned right
Bet you never worry
never even feel a fright
Bet you got it all planned right
Never think to worry
never even feel a fright.
Single sleeps alone
and I know you don't really mind
Five years by your side
so I know you really don't mind
But don't you never be down
I said don't ever
'Cause it's gonna keep 'em hanging around
Never be down
I said don't ever
Because it's gonna keep 'em hanging around
Don't you never think it's right
Bet you think you had to but it doesn't feel right
Bet you never think it feels right
Famous-sounding words make your head feel light
Petals getting picked
with the love-yous
and the love-you-nots
Five years going by
Everyone is staying on their side
But don't never be down
I said don't ever
Because you're gonna keep 'em hanging around
Never be down
I said don't ever
Because it's gonna keep 'em hanging around.
But don't you never be down
I said don't ever
Because it's gonna keep 'em hanging around
Five years going by
Everyone is staying on their side
Never be down
I said don't ever
cause it's gonna keep 'em hanging around
Five years going by
everyone is staying on their side
I said don't ever need to worry
cause it's gonna feel all right
Never
I dont think that something that intricate and that complex should be for just anybody. That person has to prove it in some way or another and as it stands... I`m not sure if I`ve met that person yet. I`m not sure if it`s wise of me then, to continue to pursue anything if I myself am not sure if I`m in the right place. I`ve been in too many positions of feeding and feeding myself away and not getting anything back. .. Only this time I really would rather not see myself fall into the same pit once more. This is about me, for once and I`m not going to turn it into anything other than that.
I`ve learned in my life that in order to get up and keep going I have to be selfish is certain areas.. This is no exception and it can`t be. I have to be brave enough for myself to check in and understand what`s going on...
I have to take my life into consideration and not put anything in front of it because god damn... I am so fucking tired of doing everything but that.
It`s time for me to thrive and I`m not going to let somebody bring me down. Nor do I think I want to wait for anybody. No. I really don`t. I`m sorry.
I`ve used the word 'love' around so many which ways that I`m not sure anymore what kind of love I`ve ever given away. I don`t know if it was real or not. And I don`t want to focus on that right now.
Something like that is earned not given. Seriously.
I think I care more about being figured out than anything else. And if someone wants to lose me and play that game, then so be it. Lose me.
I have yet to prove whether that works or not. And I`ve conditioned myself to somewhat be fine with never finding out whether I`ve impacted anybody or not. It matters little to me.
Identity.. Identity.
I don`t know.
Would any of you say that I`m pretty solid on knowing who I am? Do I carry myself strongly or do I lack that self-responsibility?
Or do I know myself too well to the point where I am bored emotionally?
I feel that sometimes knowing what you need can be a drag in of itself because knowing what you needs means that sometimes that need cannot ever come from you alone and you must rely on something else to acheive it.
Well then.
Dilemma. Por Favor.
Don`t you Evah - Soon Lyrics
Bet you got it all planned right
Bet you never worry
never even feel a fright
Bet you got it all planned right
Never think to worry
never even feel a fright.
Single sleeps alone
and I know you don't really mind
Five years by your side
so I know you really don't mind
But don't you never be down
I said don't ever
'Cause it's gonna keep 'em hanging around
Never be down
I said don't ever
Because it's gonna keep 'em hanging around
Don't you never think it's right
Bet you think you had to but it doesn't feel right
Bet you never think it feels right
Famous-sounding words make your head feel light
Petals getting picked
with the love-yous
and the love-you-nots
Five years going by
Everyone is staying on their side
But don't never be down
I said don't ever
Because you're gonna keep 'em hanging around
Never be down
I said don't ever
Because it's gonna keep 'em hanging around.
But don't you never be down
I said don't ever
Because it's gonna keep 'em hanging around
Five years going by
Everyone is staying on their side
Never be down
I said don't ever
cause it's gonna keep 'em hanging around
Five years going by
everyone is staying on their side
I said don't ever need to worry
cause it's gonna feel all right
Never