Fanfic Moments Meme, and other things as well
1. It has been a strange week up here in the Pacific NW! Dry, clear, cold, and WINDY. We've had steady 30 mph winds for days now, gusts around 60 mph (around 100 kmph for all y'all on that lovely rational metric system). It's knocked to power out a few times, and I can watch the windows shiver with the biggest gusts. Thursday morning had a sparkly ice-fog so dense that I could watch my hands move it in front of me: rather pretty, especially when the sunrise turned it all purple, but 10 feet of glittery visibility does not make catching a bus in the predawn hours an easy thing.
2. Still have not watched the new BsG, but am caught up with everything up until Friday's ep. For all my wavery ambivalence, I find myself oddly invested in seeing the show. BsG has been vastly improved by the imaginary dS AU where Ray is a defectively queer model 2 cylon, resurrected a cylon ship that is supposed to be offline because every cylon it brings back turns out queer and quirky and ADORABLE instead of creepy as all get out. He meets Fraser, who was boxed on the same ship because he is a gay cylon. A gay, gay cylon. Together, they flee through space before finding some planet!Canada where they live happily ever after! Favorite scene in the AU that will never get written: Ray is captured by a group of Leoben 2s, but Fraser swoops in and immediately recognizes his Ray as RAY because it is TRUE LOVE. There was also some mention of paint!sex! (many thanks to sol_se, with whom I email about this sort of thing when I really should be working) / plot bunny?
3. I have concluded that Angel is my favorite Joss Whedon show, if only because everyone hates themselves so much. I love Buffy and Firefly, but they just don't bring on the self-loathing and desperation as hard. Wes!
4. I have signed up as a fan artist for the Summer of Stargate ficathon *freaks out about commitment and the whole not being anywhere near as good as the "real" artists in the fandom, and not actually knowing anyone in SG-1 fandom* I've never actually committed to anything in any challenge before!
5. For More Joy Day, Nos brought back the Favorite Fanfic Moments Meme . Her's are all dS, and while I've been all over the dS fandom of late and fully intend to stick around (*waves hi to the new peeps!*), I have realized how little actual "reading" I do over there. A dS list would end up mostly being a "favorite moments zabira (and others) have read to me" list.
SO, same meme, different fandom! I may still do a dS list too, but I've done more reading in SGA over the past year. Though, yes, most of these have been podfic'd, too (sometimes soon after I fell in love with them), and since I haven't actually done that much reading in this fandom either, it's likely insanely predictable! I seriously need to settle in somewhere for more than six months at a time! My fannish ADD, allow me to whine about it to you *g*
Also, this got REALLY REALLY long! And a bit NC-17.
"Not my favorite fics, or the ones I read all the time," she wrote, "but just the moments that I replay in my head sometimes when I am sitting on the subway or driving for a long time or stopped at a red light or staring at the ceiling in my bedroom."
Nearly all John/Rodney, even though I read outside of the pairing more than a lot of John/Rodney shippers. Oddly, I think of myself as an angst queen, but most of these are sappy and sweet and I'm going to have to turn in my angst merit badge or something!
10. Rodney's desciption of high school-aged John in zelempa's Rock, Paper (No Scissors) . Trapped in an alien prison, John and Rodney are only able to communicate via notes written on tiny scraps of paper. It sounds depressing. It is hilarious! They start writing about John in high school, to which Rodney replies You so were a goth. You wrote angsty poetry like this:
MY SOUL by John Sheppard
My soul
once soared
and glittered
in the sky
like an F16
but now
night
has fallen
upon
my F16
in the sky.
HAAA!
9. My wife's favorite SG-verse fic: Yoshino , by Auburn and eretria, which is a smoking hot John/Rodney/Sam Carter threesome. (dodificus, I STILL can't believe you recorded this for us! *blush*). I adore John in this, skittish and wanting and so so scared about all the things he shouldn't be doing and feeling and wanting. So, Sam ties him to the bed post with her silk stockings and I pretty much died of guh:
"Hold on," she whispered to him, stretching over him and slipping her stocking away from his slack fingers. The silk was still warm from her body. He moved, startled and maybe not so into this when she wound the silk around one wrist, but Rodney was there, taking John's wrists and holding them in place as Sam tied both hands firmly to the bed post.
8. The scene in fiercelydreamed's Unidentified , where, following his dishonorable discharge from the air force, John returns to LA and Rodney, where he ends up in Rodney's bed, and John thinks that maybe he should have sex with Rodney, because "after all, it’s the only thing he’s good at that he’s still allowed to do." .
And it's real to me, right there. Yes, we have our wouldn't it be hot/funny/interesting if TV character John Sheppard were queer fandom thing, but this makes me stop and think about how horrible and heartbreaking it would be if John were actually gay, all the secrets and fear he'd have to live with every day of his life. And I've never had an especially distinct separation between fictional people and real people I love, and I'm mostly convinced that John actually is gay. Breaks my heart!
7. In taste_is_sweet's Eloquence , when Rodney gets John's message, spelled out in the objects that have replaced Rodney's words (crack premise executed so beautifully that it becomes poetry!)
You; gone; life; deficient; sorrow; no; forfeit.
6. In M.'s Your Cowboy Days Are Over when John "gives away" his memories of the horrors of war to the recent arrivals so they will have something to auction off instead of their children's memories. This is John Sheppard to me, under the stupid things canon has him do. He's a guy who has seen unspeakable horror and pain and knows just how bad things get, and yet is still good and lovable and wants to help and protect people and will put himself on the line every damn time.
5. kaneko's Intersections (see, I TOLD you this list was predictable!). Rodney's pro and con list for going to Atlantis, especially IGOMUHSWRM!, which, of course, translates as "If I get over myself, unbelievably hot sex with Rodney McKay."
4. TEH SEX in resonant8's Advantage (which was the first story I read in the fandom, and the first podfic I ever listened to, and therefore is one of those "jumped off the cliff moments"). I spent days flipping over these paragraphs in my head, trying to figure out how something so succinct can be SO DAMN HOT:
That night after dinner, when Rodney was frowning over his laptop and rubbing the back of his neck, John said, "Hey, I can give you a backrub now."
It was as good as the first one, and then it was better, and then it was really amazingly good, and then somehow or other he had his fingers in John's ass and John was panting, slack-mouthed, grabbing the sheets and saying, "Fuck me," over and over like they were the only two words he knew.
3. Auburn again, this time In The City of Seven Walls , from which I could pull out at least a dozen moments that have lodged so deeply in my mind that I forget that they are "just fanfic". But, to pick just one...
Rodney watches John dance in the courtyard. It's a moment of such power and grace and beauty that I can hold my breath and watch it, see John defiantly beautiful and strong and REFUSING to be broken. And Rodney, knowing that it's all about Atlantis and the things they have been torn from.
2. By sheafrotherdon, from Wishing , of the lovely Nantucket AU , the everyday heartbreakingly beautiful moments of love. Rodney watches John sleep:
One morning I woke up before you and you were elegant, careless, sprawled out across the sheets with such abandon I thought I was dying, honestly dying, losing the last of my breath, seeing my end, and I begged (in my head) to be able to touch you and I closed my hand around your wrist and you woke up. You woke up and kissed me and I didn't die, and that's the sort of miracle religious people never see.
1. Can you do this meme in either SGA or dS without a cesperanza moment? My number one, far and away, from Weddings, Plural, and a Yak . John and Rodney's wedding vows, when they realize that they actually mean it. If I ever can marry my wife, I have secured Ces's permission to borrow them:
"My love for you is strange and wonderful. Your love for me is an odd and awesome gift. Be my friend, lover, and partner, and I will give you all of my heart."
2. Still have not watched the new BsG, but am caught up with everything up until Friday's ep. For all my wavery ambivalence, I find myself oddly invested in seeing the show. BsG has been vastly improved by the imaginary dS AU where Ray is a defectively queer model 2 cylon, resurrected a cylon ship that is supposed to be offline because every cylon it brings back turns out queer and quirky and ADORABLE instead of creepy as all get out. He meets Fraser, who was boxed on the same ship because he is a gay cylon. A gay, gay cylon. Together, they flee through space before finding some planet!Canada where they live happily ever after! Favorite scene in the AU that will never get written: Ray is captured by a group of Leoben 2s, but Fraser swoops in and immediately recognizes his Ray as RAY because it is TRUE LOVE. There was also some mention of paint!sex! (many thanks to sol_se, with whom I email about this sort of thing when I really should be working) / plot bunny?
3. I have concluded that Angel is my favorite Joss Whedon show, if only because everyone hates themselves so much. I love Buffy and Firefly, but they just don't bring on the self-loathing and desperation as hard. Wes!
4. I have signed up as a fan artist for the Summer of Stargate ficathon *freaks out about commitment and the whole not being anywhere near as good as the "real" artists in the fandom, and not actually knowing anyone in SG-1 fandom* I've never actually committed to anything in any challenge before!
5. For More Joy Day, Nos brought back the Favorite Fanfic Moments Meme . Her's are all dS, and while I've been all over the dS fandom of late and fully intend to stick around (*waves hi to the new peeps!*), I have realized how little actual "reading" I do over there. A dS list would end up mostly being a "favorite moments zabira (and others) have read to me" list.
SO, same meme, different fandom! I may still do a dS list too, but I've done more reading in SGA over the past year. Though, yes, most of these have been podfic'd, too (sometimes soon after I fell in love with them), and since I haven't actually done that much reading in this fandom either, it's likely insanely predictable! I seriously need to settle in somewhere for more than six months at a time! My fannish ADD, allow me to whine about it to you *g*
Also, this got REALLY REALLY long! And a bit NC-17.
"Not my favorite fics, or the ones I read all the time," she wrote, "but just the moments that I replay in my head sometimes when I am sitting on the subway or driving for a long time or stopped at a red light or staring at the ceiling in my bedroom."
Nearly all John/Rodney, even though I read outside of the pairing more than a lot of John/Rodney shippers. Oddly, I think of myself as an angst queen, but most of these are sappy and sweet and I'm going to have to turn in my angst merit badge or something!
10. Rodney's desciption of high school-aged John in zelempa's Rock, Paper (No Scissors) . Trapped in an alien prison, John and Rodney are only able to communicate via notes written on tiny scraps of paper. It sounds depressing. It is hilarious! They start writing about John in high school, to which Rodney replies You so were a goth. You wrote angsty poetry like this:
MY SOUL by John Sheppard
My soul
once soared
and glittered
in the sky
like an F16
but now
night
has fallen
upon
my F16
in the sky.
HAAA!
9. My wife's favorite SG-verse fic: Yoshino , by Auburn and eretria, which is a smoking hot John/Rodney/Sam Carter threesome. (dodificus, I STILL can't believe you recorded this for us! *blush*). I adore John in this, skittish and wanting and so so scared about all the things he shouldn't be doing and feeling and wanting. So, Sam ties him to the bed post with her silk stockings and I pretty much died of guh:
"Hold on," she whispered to him, stretching over him and slipping her stocking away from his slack fingers. The silk was still warm from her body. He moved, startled and maybe not so into this when she wound the silk around one wrist, but Rodney was there, taking John's wrists and holding them in place as Sam tied both hands firmly to the bed post.
8. The scene in fiercelydreamed's Unidentified , where, following his dishonorable discharge from the air force, John returns to LA and Rodney, where he ends up in Rodney's bed, and John thinks that maybe he should have sex with Rodney, because "after all, it’s the only thing he’s good at that he’s still allowed to do." .
And it's real to me, right there. Yes, we have our wouldn't it be hot/funny/interesting if TV character John Sheppard were queer fandom thing, but this makes me stop and think about how horrible and heartbreaking it would be if John were actually gay, all the secrets and fear he'd have to live with every day of his life. And I've never had an especially distinct separation between fictional people and real people I love, and I'm mostly convinced that John actually is gay. Breaks my heart!
7. In taste_is_sweet's Eloquence , when Rodney gets John's message, spelled out in the objects that have replaced Rodney's words (crack premise executed so beautifully that it becomes poetry!)
You; gone; life; deficient; sorrow; no; forfeit.
6. In M.'s Your Cowboy Days Are Over when John "gives away" his memories of the horrors of war to the recent arrivals so they will have something to auction off instead of their children's memories. This is John Sheppard to me, under the stupid things canon has him do. He's a guy who has seen unspeakable horror and pain and knows just how bad things get, and yet is still good and lovable and wants to help and protect people and will put himself on the line every damn time.
5. kaneko's Intersections (see, I TOLD you this list was predictable!). Rodney's pro and con list for going to Atlantis, especially IGOMUHSWRM!, which, of course, translates as "If I get over myself, unbelievably hot sex with Rodney McKay."
4. TEH SEX in resonant8's Advantage (which was the first story I read in the fandom, and the first podfic I ever listened to, and therefore is one of those "jumped off the cliff moments"). I spent days flipping over these paragraphs in my head, trying to figure out how something so succinct can be SO DAMN HOT:
That night after dinner, when Rodney was frowning over his laptop and rubbing the back of his neck, John said, "Hey, I can give you a backrub now."
It was as good as the first one, and then it was better, and then it was really amazingly good, and then somehow or other he had his fingers in John's ass and John was panting, slack-mouthed, grabbing the sheets and saying, "Fuck me," over and over like they were the only two words he knew.
3. Auburn again, this time In The City of Seven Walls , from which I could pull out at least a dozen moments that have lodged so deeply in my mind that I forget that they are "just fanfic". But, to pick just one...
Rodney watches John dance in the courtyard. It's a moment of such power and grace and beauty that I can hold my breath and watch it, see John defiantly beautiful and strong and REFUSING to be broken. And Rodney, knowing that it's all about Atlantis and the things they have been torn from.
2. By sheafrotherdon, from Wishing , of the lovely Nantucket AU , the everyday heartbreakingly beautiful moments of love. Rodney watches John sleep:
One morning I woke up before you and you were elegant, careless, sprawled out across the sheets with such abandon I thought I was dying, honestly dying, losing the last of my breath, seeing my end, and I begged (in my head) to be able to touch you and I closed my hand around your wrist and you woke up. You woke up and kissed me and I didn't die, and that's the sort of miracle religious people never see.
1. Can you do this meme in either SGA or dS without a cesperanza moment? My number one, far and away, from Weddings, Plural, and a Yak . John and Rodney's wedding vows, when they realize that they actually mean it. If I ever can marry my wife, I have secured Ces's permission to borrow them:
"My love for you is strange and wonderful. Your love for me is an odd and awesome gift. Be my friend, lover, and partner, and I will give you all of my heart."