fondue fun do
love isnt complicated - life is.
I'm back where life seems normal.
I'm living with friends, and last night i had my first fondue party. It was fun, minus the prepping part. I found i was working to hard to really get anything to eat. I think my guests had a good time. The chocolate fondue was a bust, .. but take 2 turned out really nice. So.. now we know to use condensed milk and real milk.. other wise the chocolate gets burny.
But thats really not whats on mind. I dont want to post it. I havnt talked about it aloud yet. and I think i want to keep it that way for now. For now, its just a thought. {Lots of thoughts, a few dreams - the other night i woke up and my heart was beating so fast i thought i was going to toss my cookies}
I just needed to post that something is on my mind. I didnt see this coming, but i should have. I am very aware of how my mind and heart works. And its happened before. But before i didnt feel bad about it. I thought, that becuase i have Heidi, it wont happen. She's been who i have wanted for as long as I can remember. This wasnt an issue when we lived in Ottawa before. But Heidi and I were knew. And now I'm comfortable? too comfortable? and now something new has made my rethink my priorities? Things we have been talking about for a year, dont seem right anymore.
But is that all because of one little defect/default I have?
I'm back where life seems normal.
I'm living with friends, and last night i had my first fondue party. It was fun, minus the prepping part. I found i was working to hard to really get anything to eat. I think my guests had a good time. The chocolate fondue was a bust, .. but take 2 turned out really nice. So.. now we know to use condensed milk and real milk.. other wise the chocolate gets burny.
But thats really not whats on mind. I dont want to post it. I havnt talked about it aloud yet. and I think i want to keep it that way for now. For now, its just a thought. {Lots of thoughts, a few dreams - the other night i woke up and my heart was beating so fast i thought i was going to toss my cookies}
I just needed to post that something is on my mind. I didnt see this coming, but i should have. I am very aware of how my mind and heart works. And its happened before. But before i didnt feel bad about it. I thought, that becuase i have Heidi, it wont happen. She's been who i have wanted for as long as I can remember. This wasnt an issue when we lived in Ottawa before. But Heidi and I were knew. And now I'm comfortable? too comfortable? and now something new has made my rethink my priorities? Things we have been talking about for a year, dont seem right anymore.
But is that all because of one little defect/default I have?