I hate this .. 8\
Ok , so now? I'm scared to death. It's been almost a week since the TALK. Not a sound was made yet. It probably wont b made until she'll have the easiest way (in her eyes mind you) of saying that she found better and there are stuff bigger than our need (that she of course dose not have) and that we both deserve better and so on and so forth. What a bunch of crap.. honestly. I mean - *she* is the one that found something else, *she* is the one not losing anything when this silence, *she* will just go back to normal, *she* has that connection again. Because she was building it while I was doing my best to keep my thoughts to myself so that she could expend and not have only me in her world. Very smart of me.
I'm not sure I can go out there again. Say that we need to talk. I'm not sure I want to hear that last goodbye.
It's driving me crazy knowing that she is not giving it, *us* any attention! She has her and now I'm crap. It's okay not to think of what happened!
Dimmit! I want her back and she wont have cause I've been pushed (both with my hands , her hands, and the hands of the new one) out and the gates are closed now. And that, my friend, is a vary.. almost to scary thought.
I'm not sure I can go out there again. Say that we need to talk. I'm not sure I want to hear that last goodbye.
It's driving me crazy knowing that she is not giving it, *us* any attention! She has her and now I'm crap. It's okay not to think of what happened!
Dimmit! I want her back and she wont have cause I've been pushed (both with my hands , her hands, and the hands of the new one) out and the gates are closed now. And that, my friend, is a vary.. almost to scary thought.