sleep
in the last few days I have been averaging 3hrs of sleep a night.
I was out of sleeping phase, decided to wake up early (10am) to stay awake all day and ended up sleeping at 8pm.
Only to find that I woke up at 11pm refreshed and ready for breakfast...
Now, everyone has heard the standard insomnia rants, there are many solutions - the main one is to turn off the laptop and try for some solid sleep, putting up with being awake for a while but eventually drifting off. In most cases this works, recently it hasnt; even with a decent amount of sleep to catch up on from deprivation.
I go through the thought processes in my mind:
- uni, week 3, ontrack with everything. not plaguing mind.
- house living, all 7 flatmates I get along with very well. not plaguing mind.
- financial status. reasonable savings, no debts, continued income from work. not plaguing mind.
- work, Level2 case investigator for regular shifts, challenging and somewhat fun. not plaguing mind.
- the updated reminder that most of my friends are in serious longterm relationships and that, however zen and free it is to be single, companionship is the peak of contentment.
Knowing that the longer time goes by, the less friends go out and more time is spent with their loved ones, the continued realization that I am indeed alone in this universe. slight plague of the mind, however this is not a huge revelation.
- the thought that I am socially stale, negative, pessimistic and judgmental. why else would I have a dark and brooding blog like this?. However this all depends on the environment for social conduct, when I am traveling I seem to be a different person. Plaguing the mind moderately.
- the wait for travel, the wait for freedom. either I change my personality and really get out there, find my soulmate and settle down. Or, have a constant barrier from commitment due to fear of being held back, depending of course who I come into contact with. Plaguing the mind a decent amount, subconsciously effecting how I approach people socially, I think.
come to think of it, this all started after watching inception... maybe the spindle is still spinning ;)
getting out of phase to begin with was blizzard's fault, however.
I was out of sleeping phase, decided to wake up early (10am) to stay awake all day and ended up sleeping at 8pm.
Only to find that I woke up at 11pm refreshed and ready for breakfast...
Now, everyone has heard the standard insomnia rants, there are many solutions - the main one is to turn off the laptop and try for some solid sleep, putting up with being awake for a while but eventually drifting off. In most cases this works, recently it hasnt; even with a decent amount of sleep to catch up on from deprivation.
I go through the thought processes in my mind:
- uni, week 3, ontrack with everything. not plaguing mind.
- house living, all 7 flatmates I get along with very well. not plaguing mind.
- financial status. reasonable savings, no debts, continued income from work. not plaguing mind.
- work, Level2 case investigator for regular shifts, challenging and somewhat fun. not plaguing mind.
- the updated reminder that most of my friends are in serious longterm relationships and that, however zen and free it is to be single, companionship is the peak of contentment.
Knowing that the longer time goes by, the less friends go out and more time is spent with their loved ones, the continued realization that I am indeed alone in this universe. slight plague of the mind, however this is not a huge revelation.
- the thought that I am socially stale, negative, pessimistic and judgmental. why else would I have a dark and brooding blog like this?. However this all depends on the environment for social conduct, when I am traveling I seem to be a different person. Plaguing the mind moderately.
- the wait for travel, the wait for freedom. either I change my personality and really get out there, find my soulmate and settle down. Or, have a constant barrier from commitment due to fear of being held back, depending of course who I come into contact with. Plaguing the mind a decent amount, subconsciously effecting how I approach people socially, I think.
come to think of it, this all started after watching inception... maybe the spindle is still spinning ;)
getting out of phase to begin with was blizzard's fault, however.