Just like cobain i guess?!
Sup? Well last night i almost took 40 motrin to kill my fucken self but after 16 pills or so and feeling realy light headed and wierd as hell i couldnt finish it i just couldnt. My parents are my worst night mare though i know this for a fact now only they could make me want to die as much as i wanted to last night. Why thye treat my like dirt i have no idea but they do and always have been and its getting realy hard cuz i have a job were i already have to take crap from dumb customers and a goffy boss named dou so ya its driven me nuts realy. I dont even know if i should tell cat that i try'd to kill my self I dont want to hurt her or make her cry cuz of what my parents are puting me threw. I talked to bug 2 nights ago and she finaly got away from her nut bag mom i told her i was still liven with my parents and i am still on probation and she was damn realy I'm sorry. I miss talken to her shes cool and has always understood me even when we broke up we were still cool unlike me and sab i was going to talk to sab at the practice graduation but she walked off before i could. I did see marco and the movies and said hi he waved back and there her uncle was there and i talked to him and he told me how shes doing which was pretty good. Well the school fired me for the same thing i was hired for being on probation which is wrong and i will and can sue for it thye will never hire me again if i do but fuck it i need the money and i can get better when i am off probation so it doesnt bother me much. I got to go to the pawn shop a week ago and i found a left handed fender strat the same guitar kurt cobain played well not the very same one but the same type i was like fuck yeah! It was bad ass i so want one i have so much pain and anger that i could put in to wanting to have the talent to show how i feel threw music that i will make I'm even haven guys pop out of no were and want me to get in a band with them which is odd and cool all at the same time. Maybe thats what I am meant to do who knows it could be just a hit and miss thing but i am going to try just like i have been working on my skates I busted my ass a few times so far but i can go fast now and jump a foot or so. I dont want to give up it just wouldnt be me i will try tell i cant no more well this is all i have to say for now i got shit to do so i can get out of this god damn house ow ya i dont have to ever go to church again hell yeah lol well laters!