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Hello world...how long has it been, a while, yeah?
anyway I guess it doesn't feel like much has happened to me, but to everyone reading this my whole summer has happened.
Alix got back from Spain...it really makes me want to go even more now, and it even seems possible, if I can get the money that is. It was NIce to see Alix after seven long weeks of her absence. Her spanish is great, even though it was good before, now I know its even better.
I've had many late-night phone conversations that were rather melancholy with Grey. Something happened in this summer and unhappiness seems to find me at every turn. Maybe it's just that everything is changing and I am struggling to find my new place and role in my adjusted friendships, and relationships. It doesn't seem as though that is really the actual reason, because if it were if seems like it would be eaiser to fix, or deal with than my life is right now.
I'll be honest with ya, I don't like feeling like shit all the time.
and actually in the middle of writing that sentence I called Grey and my mood changed totally. I am now in a bad mood and this is a perfect example of the random and shitting mood swings I have. I am now in a bad mood for no reason and I am going to stop writing and sleep-- because that's what I do when I am unhappy I sleep. And yes, that is how I chose to deal with my unhappiness.
if anyone chooses to comment on this entry in a bad way fuck you.
much love to all things that matter, including people...
<3
savanna
anyway I guess it doesn't feel like much has happened to me, but to everyone reading this my whole summer has happened.
Alix got back from Spain...it really makes me want to go even more now, and it even seems possible, if I can get the money that is. It was NIce to see Alix after seven long weeks of her absence. Her spanish is great, even though it was good before, now I know its even better.
I've had many late-night phone conversations that were rather melancholy with Grey. Something happened in this summer and unhappiness seems to find me at every turn. Maybe it's just that everything is changing and I am struggling to find my new place and role in my adjusted friendships, and relationships. It doesn't seem as though that is really the actual reason, because if it were if seems like it would be eaiser to fix, or deal with than my life is right now.
I'll be honest with ya, I don't like feeling like shit all the time.
and actually in the middle of writing that sentence I called Grey and my mood changed totally. I am now in a bad mood and this is a perfect example of the random and shitting mood swings I have. I am now in a bad mood for no reason and I am going to stop writing and sleep-- because that's what I do when I am unhappy I sleep. And yes, that is how I chose to deal with my unhappiness.
if anyone chooses to comment on this entry in a bad way fuck you.
much love to all things that matter, including people...
<3
savanna