The Crazy Little Things Called 'Faith' And 'Destiny'... ~ 2/? ~
When Kris came home one evening he opened the mailbox and saw that Katy hadn't emptied it yet, he took out the mail and went inside. Katy wasn't home yet like she had told him,so he put down his guitar and his bag and placed himself on the couch to go through the mail. Most of them were bills or advertisement leaflets , until one enveloppe caught his attention. It wasn't really the enveloppe, but it was the handwriting that caught his eye... He knew from who this letter came...
He stood up and put the rest of the mail on the table, then he went into his music/study room with that one letter. He knew he wouldn't be disturbed there while he read that letter 'cause Katy never came in without knocking. This was the room where he worked on new songs and played the piano 'cause he could play his guitar anywhere but this was the only place where he could play the piano.
He placed himself at his desk and opened the letter...
He smiled as he read the first lines of the letter but his laugh fell when he came to the middle... Adam said he loved him...
Sure he had said it a thousand times before and so did Kris, but this time it was different...
Adam was pouring his heart out in this letter and it hurt... It hurt Kris so bad...
Adam was Adam, Kris' best friend, the only one who could read Kris like an open book and the other way around,but this... This wasn't what he had expected...
Sure he knew Adam had this so called 'crush' on him during American Idol but they had made jokes of it and laughed it away. A crush was like nothing, it was non-threatening, but this... This was so much more...
That wasn't what hurt him though...
What hurt him was that he felt exactly the same for him... He was in love with Adam...
He had tried to forget him, tried to ignore his feelings for him for so long now, and now this letter came and everything was back...
Tears were rolling down his cheeks without him even realizing it...
Adam was hurt, and it was all his fault... Why did he have to be married to Katy? Why did he have to love her and him at the same time?
He couldn't find the answers...
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he didn't know for how long he had been crying and was just caught up in his thoughts until someone knocked on the door, he quickly put the letter in one of the drawers of his desk
" Just a minute! " Kris wiped away his tears and stood up to open the door
" Hey honey! ' Katy threw her arms around Kris' neck and kissed him passionately, she noticed Kris wasn't as enthousiastic in kissing her back as other times so she pulled back and looked a little confused at him " What's wrong? "
" Nothing... " Kris quickly turns his eyes to the ground but it's too late, Katy saw how red and swollen they are
" Kris... " she asks softly " Have you been crying? "
" No... " Kris' voice sounds shaky and he knows Katy can tell he's lying
" Don't lie to me! " Katy lifts Kris head up and makes him look at her, straight in her eyes " What's going on? Why have you been crying? "
" It's nothing really, just had a bad day at rehearsal and I'm tired, more like exhausted really... That's all... " he looks back into Katy's eyes and tries to hide the truth, the real truth, about why he's been crying
" Hmm... " Katy still doesn't believe Kris, but hey, she'll figure it out sooner or later... She smiled at Kris " I just came to tell you that dinner's ready. It's just some chinese take-out 'cause I didn't really feel like cooking this evening... I hope you don't mind? "
" No, that's just fine sweetie " Kris smiled back at her and kissed her on the forehead
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When dinner was done and he had helped Katy with doing the dishes, Kris went back to his music/study room and went to stand by the window. He pulled his wallet out of his pocket, opened it and took a picture out of it. He softly stroked his finger over the picture, over the face of the most important person in the world to him. No, it wasn't a picture of Katy...
He looked out of the window, still stroking his finger over that beautiful face
" Adam... " Kris whispered softly into the nothingness that became his music room
Tears fell down again and there was nothing he could do to stop them...
He was hurt 'cause Adam was hurt... And No One, not even Katy, could sheer him up right now...