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There are so many thoughts I want to voice right now, but cannot. None involve the subject matter contained in the three previous posts, and all the eloquency in the world could not accurately convey the thoughts fighting to escape the space I limit them to inside my mind. As High School draws to a close, I have this strange and terrifying feeling of helplessness toward what my future will be. Leaving High School will be leaving everything I have ever known for the past 18 years of my existence, and starting anew on a pathway with a duration of 4 years, a pathway along which every decision will shape and mold my life for years to come. Life is so simple when others are managing your vital needs, such as buying food, paying bills, etc. In South Africa, it's generally accepted that you can stay home until whenever you want. I know South Africans who stay home until they're like, 22. My little conflict is that, while I desire independence (perhaps a slow and gradual transition), I don't want to start my life immediately, up to my neck in bills, expenses, shopping, work, and studying, among other persuits of everyday life. Which is why I'll probably live at home for at least 2 more years (besides, I love my room and I couldn't be happier with where I live right now) But what then? Transfer to some big fancy school (probably in cali.. thinkin UCLA or USC.. or another good school) Live at home? move out? What about friends? where will they be? Will we keep in touch? And life after school? There are an infinite number of decisions, scenarios, and consequences generated by each of these. Job? Branch? Salary? Income? Taxes? Mortgage? Car Payments? Insurance? Work hours? Water/Electric/Gas Bills? Holy Shit! Family? FUTURE Family?
Stress much? Cough. um.. Yeah?
These things have a way of working themselves out. I never consider myself as someone who has stressed much, because my entire K-12 school career has been laid back, pretty lazy, and devoid of much effort due to the fact that I had no real motivation to work my hardest. College will most likely be different because that will be working toward a real job. With real, tangible benefits. And money. I'm considering practicing Law for my career. If you look in the right places, a profession in law can be quite lucrative. Since I come from a family that's pretty law oriented, (dad's a lawyer, mom's in final year of law school) I'm thinkin law won't be too hard to grasp. As for payments of various nature, a stable and financially rewarding career will more than compensate for the monetary value necessitated by normal lifestyle. The question is not "will I find a good career", it is "what good career will I persue? And as for family, I would much rather not wait on becoming close with a member of the female gender, for companionship reasons, and to have someone to hold when times get rough for either myself or her. However, when it comes to this, you don't have a choice as to who will desire you, and whether or not that person will be the one you desire reciprocally. Once again, things have a way of working themselves out, and hopefully the time it takes for something of this stature to unravel will not be of long duration.
-Let it be herein noted that people in high school who use soundboards to prank call people are extraordinarily immature. At least be original and less predictable if you're going to waste my time. Mention this in a resume, I'm sure the adult world will be fascinated by your lack of organized time management.-
And so with that, I close. Not because that's all I have to say, but because I'm frustrated by the fact that one can be brilliant and have my ideas, yet be blinkered and fettered by the limitations of language. I may not be brilliant, but I have ideas, opinions, and a mindset which can often not be communicated sufficiently through the words of the English language, and it is one of the most expressive languages available. Anyway, nite, sleep well, and good luck to everyone.
Stress much? Cough. um.. Yeah?
These things have a way of working themselves out. I never consider myself as someone who has stressed much, because my entire K-12 school career has been laid back, pretty lazy, and devoid of much effort due to the fact that I had no real motivation to work my hardest. College will most likely be different because that will be working toward a real job. With real, tangible benefits. And money. I'm considering practicing Law for my career. If you look in the right places, a profession in law can be quite lucrative. Since I come from a family that's pretty law oriented, (dad's a lawyer, mom's in final year of law school) I'm thinkin law won't be too hard to grasp. As for payments of various nature, a stable and financially rewarding career will more than compensate for the monetary value necessitated by normal lifestyle. The question is not "will I find a good career", it is "what good career will I persue? And as for family, I would much rather not wait on becoming close with a member of the female gender, for companionship reasons, and to have someone to hold when times get rough for either myself or her. However, when it comes to this, you don't have a choice as to who will desire you, and whether or not that person will be the one you desire reciprocally. Once again, things have a way of working themselves out, and hopefully the time it takes for something of this stature to unravel will not be of long duration.
-Let it be herein noted that people in high school who use soundboards to prank call people are extraordinarily immature. At least be original and less predictable if you're going to waste my time. Mention this in a resume, I'm sure the adult world will be fascinated by your lack of organized time management.-
And so with that, I close. Not because that's all I have to say, but because I'm frustrated by the fact that one can be brilliant and have my ideas, yet be blinkered and fettered by the limitations of language. I may not be brilliant, but I have ideas, opinions, and a mindset which can often not be communicated sufficiently through the words of the English language, and it is one of the most expressive languages available. Anyway, nite, sleep well, and good luck to everyone.