The Last Straw - One Shot
Title: The Last Straw
Fandom(s): U-KISS
Pairing(s): broken!Kemaru, 2Ki, Kevin/OC
Rating: PG-13 w/ mentions of NC-17
Genre: Angst
Word Count: 2,742 words
Warnings: Awful!English, Nonsensical!Story
Author's Notes: This might sound harsh on Kiseop and Kibum, I don’t know yet. I’m just horribly annoyed by 2Ki, do not mind me. The ending is actually open, we all know Kevin’s a softie. So they could have settled the problem, they could have not. This is badly written, you are warned. I’m just putting my rants into story form.
Kevin didn’t know when it started. He just slowly started losing someone he thought would never leave him, and it happened so slowly that he never realises, until he tries to go to him and he doesn’t even know.
“Kibummie-hyung, see-” Kevin showed Kibum a fan gift he got, only to be cut off by Kiseop dragging Kibum out to see a probably very ordinary scene.
Kevin blinked, suddenly realising that he was all alone.
Again.
This was the fifty-seventh time he couldn’t see a second shadow beside his own.
-
“What’s wrong?” Soohyun asked, head moving downwards to look up at Kevin as the younger was staring down at the floor. Kevin looked up a little and managed a smile.
Soohyun frowned, whipping out a mirror. “Do that again.”
He did, and his own image broke his own heart. He looked horrible.
Was that why he doesn’t look at him? Because now, he’s a total mess?
Soohyun beckoned for Dongho to annoy Kevin, who ended up walking towards the main vocals with his ears plugged, looking at Soohyun questioningly.
“Talk to him.”
Dongho looked at Kevin and leaned closer, kissing Kevin’s cheeks. “Hyung, what do you want for your birthday?”
Kevin shook his head and didn’t smile, not wanting Dongho to see that ugly smile. “I just want some time alone.”
Dongho furrowed his eyebrows. “But you’ve been alone a lot recently.”
Even Dongho realised it.
What about him?
-
U-KISS were being lame again, playing a game to decide who would win the teddy bear they got from a fan. There was no name on the bear to say who it was for, and their manager said the girl who passed it to him said it was for U-KISS.
“Scissors,paper, stone!” Alexander led, and everyone stuck out scissors, except Kevin who held out a stone.
“Bear goes to Kevin~!” Eli announced, throwing the bear in Kevin’s direction.
Kevin caught it with a delighted smile, having something fluffy to cuddle for the night. At the corner of his eyes, he saw Kiseop hugging Kibum as some kind of consolation.
He was a winner, but he felt like a total loser.
Kevin smiled at his bear and threw it back to Eli, who seemed to understand, only carrying the bear back to their dormitory. Dongho tried to snatch it away, but Eli shook his head and the youngest immediately backed down.
Kevin walked away.
-
Kibum pinned Kevin against the wall to ask him what was wrong. He leaned closer, too close with their lips just a few centimetres apart. Kevin turned away, looking at the wall behind him, hearing the older sigh.
“Xander-hyung says you’re not yourself. What’s wrong?” Kibum moved back to give Kevin a little space, something he would never do in the past.
Kevin mustered whatever strength he had left from a broken heart, to push Kibum away, turning to run.
“Kevin!”
It was Xander-hyung, Soohyun-hyung, Eli, Dongho, but just not them. Why would they even realise his heart was broken into irreparable pieces anyway?
-
“Kiseop-ah!” Kevin flinched, walking into the bathroom and trying to remain calm. He wetted his toothbrush before applying the toothpaste, and started brushing his teeth.
“Yah! Kiseop, are you-” Kibum paused in his words as he peeked out from his position behind the curtains to see Kevin.
“Kevin-ah, mind calling Kiseop?”
Kevin doesn’t move, steadily brushing his teeth. Now, it was the bottom set of teeth.
Kibum frowned, calling for Kiseop again.
Kiseop ran towards the bathroom and stood at the door. He stared at Kevin, Kevin watched himself from the mirror, and Kibum sighed at Kiseop.
“Yes, hyung?”
“Could you bring me my towel?”
“Oh, sure thing.” Kiseop smiled, still watching Kevin curiously. He squeezed the younger’s bottom, but Kevin only jumped before returning to brushing his teeth, as if unaffected by Kiseop’s actions.
“What’s wrong, Kevin?” Kiseop then wrapped his arms around Kevin’s waist, causing Kevin to throw his toothbrush into the sink with a powerful swing.
The sound of the toothbrush dropping into the sink made Kiseop confused, pulling back. Kevin walked away and decided to wash his mouth in the kitchen sink.
“What’s wrong with him?” Kiseop blinked, looking to Kibum for an answer. The older shrugged, unable to understand either.
-
“Why the heck do you not understand what I want?!” Kevin bursted out one day, glaring at Kibum.
“What the hell do you want?!” Kibum screamed back, annoyed with Kevin’s actions lately.
“I WANT TO DIE.” Kevin threw the words as if it didn’t matter, stomping away. The members were all taken aback by his words, and Alexander put a hand on Kevin’s shoulder to calm him down.
“Kevin, we’ll work this out.” Soohyun tried, and Dongho followed, worried about Kevin.
This was the first time Kevin got angry.
Kibum didn’t realise, it was the last straw.
-
“Are you cold?” Kiseop asked Kibum, waving a glove before Kibum’s eyes. “We can share this~!”
Kibum smiled, the incident earlier with Kevin all forgotten.
“Yeah, I’m cold.”
Kevin stared blankly into the space, far away from all his group members, waiting for U-KISS’s turn to perform.
His fists were tightly clenched, trying to grasp whatever warmth left in the cold winter.
In his heart.
-
A man he didn’t know walked into their dormitory. Kibum frowned as he watched from his position in the kitchen, drinking a cup of water. All his members were away, except Kevin who refused to step out of his room since the members left the dormitory.
How did this man even get the keys?
“Hi, baby.” Kevin’s flirtatious tone made Kibum shiver. “I missed you.”
“I missed you too, honey.”
Kevin giggled, already in front of the man. He leaned closer to kiss the man.
When did Kevin kiss people? His first kiss, with this man? Though they were accidentally each other’s first, but this...Kevin initiated it with such ease...
“Come to my room, I’ve been waiting for you.” Kevin turned around in the direction of his room, leaning backwards as the man wrapped his arms around Kevin’s slim waist.
The man nodded, hands sliding under Kevin’s loose shirt and touched him, causing Kevin to throw his head back and moan.
Kibum felt it was his responsibility. Kevin. To protect him.
“Kevin.”
Kevin didn’t hear him. Or at least he acted like he didn’t. The man did.
He turned and looked at him as if to size him up, before smirking and turning back to the back of Kevin’s head. “Let’s go, babe.”
The two moved into Kevin’s room with the man carrying Kevin bridal style, and they locked the door after them. Kibum followed, standing at the door to hear moans and breathless gasps.
Kevin. Kevin was his...was his responsibility. He can’t just hear someone make love to him and...and stand back.
He just...can’t.
“But they are in love..” He barely managed a whisper, feeling himself get hard from the sounds.
They were at it already. Kevin was screaming. Kibum threw his head back to hit the wall, angry at God knows what.
Why? What happened to Kevin? He wasn’t like this.
Their business ended fast, The man walked out with his hair messed up, buttons of his shirt undone and belt hanging off his jeans. Kevin walked out behind him with a blanket draped over his body.
“Thanks, babe. See you tomorrow?” The man grinned as he unlocked the front door, passing Kibum as if he didn’t exist.
“Had a great time too. At 10.” Kevin nodded, locking the door after the man.
“What was that?” Kibum sped over to Kevin and pinned him, demanding an explanation.
Kevin laughed at him. The kind he never heard, a maniacal one, as if he gone crazy. “Great sex. What else?”
“Kevinnie.” Kibum’s face softened, trying every way to get Kevin to wake up.
“Don’t call my name like that. Your voice annoys and disgusts me.” Kevin spat out, before easily pushing Kibum’s arms away from him to walk back into his room.
-
U-KISS sat in a circle and Kibum noticed, for the first time, that only Kiseop was listening attentively. Dongho and Soohyun were chatting between themselves, Kevin was checking his iPhone, Alexander was looking skywards as if impatient with Kibum’s apparent nonsense, Eli was looking at his right hand as he did hand exercises.
“Listen. There’s something wrong with Kevin.” Kibum spoke as if Kevin wasn’t there, who didn’t even blink at the statement.
Alexander clapped his hands and cheered, sarcastically speaking, “Wow! Sherlock Holmes discovered something!”
Kibum glared at Alexander, who glared back while gritting his teeth. Kibum turned away to the other one older than him. “Soohyun-hyung.”
“Yeah?” Soohyun was recovering from his laughter, because Dongho told him a joke a moment before.
“There’s something wrong with Kevin.” Kibum repeated.
Soohyun returned to laughing, and Dongho joined in. Kibum realised he was the joke.
“I think there’s something wrong with you, Kibum.”
“Yeah, Kevin-hyung’s fine.” Dongho chuckled.
Kibum groaned. Why doesn’t anyone understand him?
“He has sex with a stranger, guys. Aren’t you worried?”
“He doesn’t.” Eli spoke for the first time, looking up at Kibum. “That’s his boyfriend, not a stranger.”
Kibum’s chest tightened. The fact that the man had a title next to his name. The fact that the man was “Kevin’s boyfriend”.
“Eli,” Alexander said with a fake smile. “You forgot. Romeo only can see Juliet, never Snow White.”
Kevin stood up and mumbled a bye, waving his iPhone at whoever was looking.
“Oh, look. Snow White went to find one of her seven dwarfs!”
-
Kibum’s schedule ended earlier than he thought, as he drived back to their dormitory. He frowned when he heard suspicious noises in the house, unlocking the door to find the man he had seen thrusting into Kevin.
Kibum dashed towards Kevin and pulled him away, bringing the man up from his position on the floor to punch his face. Kevin stumbled backwards and fell onto the floor, not prepared for the sudden disturbance.
“What are you guys doing?!” Kibum growled at Kevin, and the man took this chance to punch Kibum’s face.
“You either watch or leave. Disturb us against and I’ll make sure your face is screwed and you can’t walk.” The man warned and pulled Kevin back to him.
Kibum glared at the man and took Kevin’s other hand, pulling Kevin towards his side. “Never come back again. Leave Kevin alone.”
“Who’s talking?” The man smirked, running towards Kibum and punching his stomach. Kibum fell flat on the floor, and the man walked towards Kibum and stepped on his face with his foot.
“Stop.” Kevin sighed, gathering the man’s clothes and throwing it towards him. “Go home, we’ll meet tomorrow.”
Kibum didn’t expect the man to listen, blinking when the foot was removed from his face. The man slipped on his clothes and walked towards the door, squinting his eyes at Kibum. “Don’t let me see you again, or you wouldn’t live.”
“Shut up and just leave.” Kevin walked behind the man to lock the door behind the man, before moving towards where the first aid kit was kept. He didn’t bother wearing his clothes, more focused on cleaning up Kibum’s wound. Blood was trickling down his mouth. “Idiot. He never says anything he doesn’t mean.”
“I don’t want to see the both of you together again.” Kibum stared into Kevin’s eyes, which were looking at Kibum’s wound and then at whatever he could use. “I mean it too.”
“Why?” Kevin looked at Kibum for a second, before looking away to clean the blood. A bruise was forming under Kibum’s right eye.
“I don’t know, I just don’t.” Kibum couldn’t help his eyes which were travelling down Kevin’s naked form. Man, the boy has a pretty good figure. He forced his eyes to tear away from the scene, looking back at Kevin’s face. “Please?”
“You can’t control me.” Kevin shook his head. “I can meet whoever I want, Kibum-hyung.”
“You don’t call me that.” Kibum frowned, noticing the difference finally. “It was always something else, not Kibum-hyung.”
“What? Kibummie-hyung?” Kevin chuckled. “Nah, that’s for Kiseop to call.”
Kibum blinked, not liking what Kevin said. “No, I want you to call me that too.”
“Look. I think you’re acting very weird. I can meet whoever I want, have sex with whoever I want and call you whatever I want. This is my life and I’m not a puppet of yours.” Kevin said, harsh words in a gentle tone. “Now shut up or I’ll let you do this yourself.”
“It wasn’t like that between us.” Kibum cupped Kevin’s face and made their eyes stare into each other. “When did it change?”
“It changed long ago. I’m surprised you only figured it out now.” Kevin shrugged, eyes looking away.
“I don’t like this. Kevin, I don’t like your change. Change back, don’t do this to yourself. Don’t...don’t do this to me.” Kibum felt tears welling up in his eyes. “Don’t ask me why, I don’t know either. But I don’t want us like this. I like us in the past.”
“As you said.” Kevin smiled weakly, wiping the tear away before it could fall. “In the past.”
“Kevin, I think...I think I love you.” Another tear replaced the one Kevin wiped away, rolling down Kibum’s cheeks. “I love you.”
“I loved you.” Kevin smiled and kissed the tear away. “But it’s gone now. You taught me to love and to shut my feelings out.”
“It can’t...It can’t.” Kibum shook his head as Kevin stood up and gathered his clothes.
“It can.”
-
Kevin cried in his room, crying once again since he decided to ignore every movement Kibum did. If only that idiot said it earlier.
His heart broke once.
His heart broke twice.
His heart broke again and again.
Now he couldn’t find his heart again, he couldn’t find it in him to love Kibum again.
-
The tension in their dormitory was so thick one could cut it with a knife. Kiseop was feeding Kibum fruits that Alexander had cut but the latter pushed Kiseop’s hands away.
“What’s wrong?” Kiseop blinked, trying again.
“Stop it.” Kibum shook his head. “Don’t come so close again.”
“Why?”
Everyone except Kevin turned to stare at Kibum.
“I love Kevin. I don’t want another man close to me anymore.”
Kiseop jumped up and walked towards Kevin, giving him a tight slap. “I hate you so much.”
Soohyun quickly pulled Kiseop away in case he could do anything else. Kevin blinked at Kiseop.
“Let me go!” Kiseop screamed. “I hate you, Kevin Woo. The whole world loves you, and when there’s something between you and Kibummie-hyung, everyone sides you. What about me?! Have you guys ever considered my feelings?!”
Dongho quickly helped Soohyun in pulling Kiseop back, his arms wrapped around Kiseop’s waist. “We love you too.”
“Don’t be a hypocrite. Every time I try to talk to anyone of you, ask yourself what you gave me as a reply. You guys said to bother someone else, bother Kibummie-hyung, bother the manager. Kevin gets left alone and I get disapproving looks. So what am I?! I’m not welcomed in U-KISS, isn’t it? I should leave, shouldn’t I?” Kiseop yelled, struggling out of Dongho’s surprisingly tight grip.
“I tried.” Eli spoke quietly. “I love you, Kiseop. But I dislike how you only find Kibum-hyung. I didn’t dare tell you my feelings and you missed all the signs I sent you. You were too engrossed pulling Kibum-hyung away from Kevin.”
Kiseop blinked, calming down instantly. “You-”
“I talk to you, I try to sit next to you, I tell you to stop bothering Kibum-hyung and you said we were just siding with Kevin because he’s oh-so-weak.” Eli moved towards Kiseop and caressed his face. “You don’t listen.”
“Really?” Kiseop’s eyes softened. “I only want to belong here.”
Eli patted Dongho’s arms for him to pull away, before bringing Kiseop into his arms. “I know. We’re all sorry for making you feel so discriminated.”
Alexander wiped the tears in his eyes, moving forward to hug the duo before Soohyun and Dongho joined in. Kibum looked at his hands while Kevin bit his lips guiltily.
“Kevin...” Kibum said quietly.
“Don’t.” Kevin stood up, knowing what Kibum was about to say. He turned to look at the five before looking at Kibum and then walking away. “I can’t.”
-
Okay, after ranting, I hope I can return to writing happy Kemaru. Sighs, hopefully. I'm holding NaNoWriMo for a very very short pause 'cause I'm writing the next chapter of AotCC so you guys can have an update like soon :)
Fandom(s): U-KISS
Pairing(s): broken!Kemaru, 2Ki, Kevin/OC
Rating: PG-13 w/ mentions of NC-17
Genre: Angst
Word Count: 2,742 words
Warnings: Awful!English, Nonsensical!Story
Author's Notes: This might sound harsh on Kiseop and Kibum, I don’t know yet. I’m just horribly annoyed by 2Ki, do not mind me. The ending is actually open, we all know Kevin’s a softie. So they could have settled the problem, they could have not. This is badly written, you are warned. I’m just putting my rants into story form.
Kevin didn’t know when it started. He just slowly started losing someone he thought would never leave him, and it happened so slowly that he never realises, until he tries to go to him and he doesn’t even know.
“Kibummie-hyung, see-” Kevin showed Kibum a fan gift he got, only to be cut off by Kiseop dragging Kibum out to see a probably very ordinary scene.
Kevin blinked, suddenly realising that he was all alone.
Again.
This was the fifty-seventh time he couldn’t see a second shadow beside his own.
-
“What’s wrong?” Soohyun asked, head moving downwards to look up at Kevin as the younger was staring down at the floor. Kevin looked up a little and managed a smile.
Soohyun frowned, whipping out a mirror. “Do that again.”
He did, and his own image broke his own heart. He looked horrible.
Was that why he doesn’t look at him? Because now, he’s a total mess?
Soohyun beckoned for Dongho to annoy Kevin, who ended up walking towards the main vocals with his ears plugged, looking at Soohyun questioningly.
“Talk to him.”
Dongho looked at Kevin and leaned closer, kissing Kevin’s cheeks. “Hyung, what do you want for your birthday?”
Kevin shook his head and didn’t smile, not wanting Dongho to see that ugly smile. “I just want some time alone.”
Dongho furrowed his eyebrows. “But you’ve been alone a lot recently.”
Even Dongho realised it.
What about him?
-
U-KISS were being lame again, playing a game to decide who would win the teddy bear they got from a fan. There was no name on the bear to say who it was for, and their manager said the girl who passed it to him said it was for U-KISS.
“Scissors,paper, stone!” Alexander led, and everyone stuck out scissors, except Kevin who held out a stone.
“Bear goes to Kevin~!” Eli announced, throwing the bear in Kevin’s direction.
Kevin caught it with a delighted smile, having something fluffy to cuddle for the night. At the corner of his eyes, he saw Kiseop hugging Kibum as some kind of consolation.
He was a winner, but he felt like a total loser.
Kevin smiled at his bear and threw it back to Eli, who seemed to understand, only carrying the bear back to their dormitory. Dongho tried to snatch it away, but Eli shook his head and the youngest immediately backed down.
Kevin walked away.
-
Kibum pinned Kevin against the wall to ask him what was wrong. He leaned closer, too close with their lips just a few centimetres apart. Kevin turned away, looking at the wall behind him, hearing the older sigh.
“Xander-hyung says you’re not yourself. What’s wrong?” Kibum moved back to give Kevin a little space, something he would never do in the past.
Kevin mustered whatever strength he had left from a broken heart, to push Kibum away, turning to run.
“Kevin!”
It was Xander-hyung, Soohyun-hyung, Eli, Dongho, but just not them. Why would they even realise his heart was broken into irreparable pieces anyway?
-
“Kiseop-ah!” Kevin flinched, walking into the bathroom and trying to remain calm. He wetted his toothbrush before applying the toothpaste, and started brushing his teeth.
“Yah! Kiseop, are you-” Kibum paused in his words as he peeked out from his position behind the curtains to see Kevin.
“Kevin-ah, mind calling Kiseop?”
Kevin doesn’t move, steadily brushing his teeth. Now, it was the bottom set of teeth.
Kibum frowned, calling for Kiseop again.
Kiseop ran towards the bathroom and stood at the door. He stared at Kevin, Kevin watched himself from the mirror, and Kibum sighed at Kiseop.
“Yes, hyung?”
“Could you bring me my towel?”
“Oh, sure thing.” Kiseop smiled, still watching Kevin curiously. He squeezed the younger’s bottom, but Kevin only jumped before returning to brushing his teeth, as if unaffected by Kiseop’s actions.
“What’s wrong, Kevin?” Kiseop then wrapped his arms around Kevin’s waist, causing Kevin to throw his toothbrush into the sink with a powerful swing.
The sound of the toothbrush dropping into the sink made Kiseop confused, pulling back. Kevin walked away and decided to wash his mouth in the kitchen sink.
“What’s wrong with him?” Kiseop blinked, looking to Kibum for an answer. The older shrugged, unable to understand either.
-
“Why the heck do you not understand what I want?!” Kevin bursted out one day, glaring at Kibum.
“What the hell do you want?!” Kibum screamed back, annoyed with Kevin’s actions lately.
“I WANT TO DIE.” Kevin threw the words as if it didn’t matter, stomping away. The members were all taken aback by his words, and Alexander put a hand on Kevin’s shoulder to calm him down.
“Kevin, we’ll work this out.” Soohyun tried, and Dongho followed, worried about Kevin.
This was the first time Kevin got angry.
Kibum didn’t realise, it was the last straw.
-
“Are you cold?” Kiseop asked Kibum, waving a glove before Kibum’s eyes. “We can share this~!”
Kibum smiled, the incident earlier with Kevin all forgotten.
“Yeah, I’m cold.”
Kevin stared blankly into the space, far away from all his group members, waiting for U-KISS’s turn to perform.
His fists were tightly clenched, trying to grasp whatever warmth left in the cold winter.
In his heart.
-
A man he didn’t know walked into their dormitory. Kibum frowned as he watched from his position in the kitchen, drinking a cup of water. All his members were away, except Kevin who refused to step out of his room since the members left the dormitory.
How did this man even get the keys?
“Hi, baby.” Kevin’s flirtatious tone made Kibum shiver. “I missed you.”
“I missed you too, honey.”
Kevin giggled, already in front of the man. He leaned closer to kiss the man.
When did Kevin kiss people? His first kiss, with this man? Though they were accidentally each other’s first, but this...Kevin initiated it with such ease...
“Come to my room, I’ve been waiting for you.” Kevin turned around in the direction of his room, leaning backwards as the man wrapped his arms around Kevin’s slim waist.
The man nodded, hands sliding under Kevin’s loose shirt and touched him, causing Kevin to throw his head back and moan.
Kibum felt it was his responsibility. Kevin. To protect him.
“Kevin.”
Kevin didn’t hear him. Or at least he acted like he didn’t. The man did.
He turned and looked at him as if to size him up, before smirking and turning back to the back of Kevin’s head. “Let’s go, babe.”
The two moved into Kevin’s room with the man carrying Kevin bridal style, and they locked the door after them. Kibum followed, standing at the door to hear moans and breathless gasps.
Kevin. Kevin was his...was his responsibility. He can’t just hear someone make love to him and...and stand back.
He just...can’t.
“But they are in love..” He barely managed a whisper, feeling himself get hard from the sounds.
They were at it already. Kevin was screaming. Kibum threw his head back to hit the wall, angry at God knows what.
Why? What happened to Kevin? He wasn’t like this.
Their business ended fast, The man walked out with his hair messed up, buttons of his shirt undone and belt hanging off his jeans. Kevin walked out behind him with a blanket draped over his body.
“Thanks, babe. See you tomorrow?” The man grinned as he unlocked the front door, passing Kibum as if he didn’t exist.
“Had a great time too. At 10.” Kevin nodded, locking the door after the man.
“What was that?” Kibum sped over to Kevin and pinned him, demanding an explanation.
Kevin laughed at him. The kind he never heard, a maniacal one, as if he gone crazy. “Great sex. What else?”
“Kevinnie.” Kibum’s face softened, trying every way to get Kevin to wake up.
“Don’t call my name like that. Your voice annoys and disgusts me.” Kevin spat out, before easily pushing Kibum’s arms away from him to walk back into his room.
-
U-KISS sat in a circle and Kibum noticed, for the first time, that only Kiseop was listening attentively. Dongho and Soohyun were chatting between themselves, Kevin was checking his iPhone, Alexander was looking skywards as if impatient with Kibum’s apparent nonsense, Eli was looking at his right hand as he did hand exercises.
“Listen. There’s something wrong with Kevin.” Kibum spoke as if Kevin wasn’t there, who didn’t even blink at the statement.
Alexander clapped his hands and cheered, sarcastically speaking, “Wow! Sherlock Holmes discovered something!”
Kibum glared at Alexander, who glared back while gritting his teeth. Kibum turned away to the other one older than him. “Soohyun-hyung.”
“Yeah?” Soohyun was recovering from his laughter, because Dongho told him a joke a moment before.
“There’s something wrong with Kevin.” Kibum repeated.
Soohyun returned to laughing, and Dongho joined in. Kibum realised he was the joke.
“I think there’s something wrong with you, Kibum.”
“Yeah, Kevin-hyung’s fine.” Dongho chuckled.
Kibum groaned. Why doesn’t anyone understand him?
“He has sex with a stranger, guys. Aren’t you worried?”
“He doesn’t.” Eli spoke for the first time, looking up at Kibum. “That’s his boyfriend, not a stranger.”
Kibum’s chest tightened. The fact that the man had a title next to his name. The fact that the man was “Kevin’s boyfriend”.
“Eli,” Alexander said with a fake smile. “You forgot. Romeo only can see Juliet, never Snow White.”
Kevin stood up and mumbled a bye, waving his iPhone at whoever was looking.
“Oh, look. Snow White went to find one of her seven dwarfs!”
-
Kibum’s schedule ended earlier than he thought, as he drived back to their dormitory. He frowned when he heard suspicious noises in the house, unlocking the door to find the man he had seen thrusting into Kevin.
Kibum dashed towards Kevin and pulled him away, bringing the man up from his position on the floor to punch his face. Kevin stumbled backwards and fell onto the floor, not prepared for the sudden disturbance.
“What are you guys doing?!” Kibum growled at Kevin, and the man took this chance to punch Kibum’s face.
“You either watch or leave. Disturb us against and I’ll make sure your face is screwed and you can’t walk.” The man warned and pulled Kevin back to him.
Kibum glared at the man and took Kevin’s other hand, pulling Kevin towards his side. “Never come back again. Leave Kevin alone.”
“Who’s talking?” The man smirked, running towards Kibum and punching his stomach. Kibum fell flat on the floor, and the man walked towards Kibum and stepped on his face with his foot.
“Stop.” Kevin sighed, gathering the man’s clothes and throwing it towards him. “Go home, we’ll meet tomorrow.”
Kibum didn’t expect the man to listen, blinking when the foot was removed from his face. The man slipped on his clothes and walked towards the door, squinting his eyes at Kibum. “Don’t let me see you again, or you wouldn’t live.”
“Shut up and just leave.” Kevin walked behind the man to lock the door behind the man, before moving towards where the first aid kit was kept. He didn’t bother wearing his clothes, more focused on cleaning up Kibum’s wound. Blood was trickling down his mouth. “Idiot. He never says anything he doesn’t mean.”
“I don’t want to see the both of you together again.” Kibum stared into Kevin’s eyes, which were looking at Kibum’s wound and then at whatever he could use. “I mean it too.”
“Why?” Kevin looked at Kibum for a second, before looking away to clean the blood. A bruise was forming under Kibum’s right eye.
“I don’t know, I just don’t.” Kibum couldn’t help his eyes which were travelling down Kevin’s naked form. Man, the boy has a pretty good figure. He forced his eyes to tear away from the scene, looking back at Kevin’s face. “Please?”
“You can’t control me.” Kevin shook his head. “I can meet whoever I want, Kibum-hyung.”
“You don’t call me that.” Kibum frowned, noticing the difference finally. “It was always something else, not Kibum-hyung.”
“What? Kibummie-hyung?” Kevin chuckled. “Nah, that’s for Kiseop to call.”
Kibum blinked, not liking what Kevin said. “No, I want you to call me that too.”
“Look. I think you’re acting very weird. I can meet whoever I want, have sex with whoever I want and call you whatever I want. This is my life and I’m not a puppet of yours.” Kevin said, harsh words in a gentle tone. “Now shut up or I’ll let you do this yourself.”
“It wasn’t like that between us.” Kibum cupped Kevin’s face and made their eyes stare into each other. “When did it change?”
“It changed long ago. I’m surprised you only figured it out now.” Kevin shrugged, eyes looking away.
“I don’t like this. Kevin, I don’t like your change. Change back, don’t do this to yourself. Don’t...don’t do this to me.” Kibum felt tears welling up in his eyes. “Don’t ask me why, I don’t know either. But I don’t want us like this. I like us in the past.”
“As you said.” Kevin smiled weakly, wiping the tear away before it could fall. “In the past.”
“Kevin, I think...I think I love you.” Another tear replaced the one Kevin wiped away, rolling down Kibum’s cheeks. “I love you.”
“I loved you.” Kevin smiled and kissed the tear away. “But it’s gone now. You taught me to love and to shut my feelings out.”
“It can’t...It can’t.” Kibum shook his head as Kevin stood up and gathered his clothes.
“It can.”
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Kevin cried in his room, crying once again since he decided to ignore every movement Kibum did. If only that idiot said it earlier.
His heart broke once.
His heart broke twice.
His heart broke again and again.
Now he couldn’t find his heart again, he couldn’t find it in him to love Kibum again.
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The tension in their dormitory was so thick one could cut it with a knife. Kiseop was feeding Kibum fruits that Alexander had cut but the latter pushed Kiseop’s hands away.
“What’s wrong?” Kiseop blinked, trying again.
“Stop it.” Kibum shook his head. “Don’t come so close again.”
“Why?”
Everyone except Kevin turned to stare at Kibum.
“I love Kevin. I don’t want another man close to me anymore.”
Kiseop jumped up and walked towards Kevin, giving him a tight slap. “I hate you so much.”
Soohyun quickly pulled Kiseop away in case he could do anything else. Kevin blinked at Kiseop.
“Let me go!” Kiseop screamed. “I hate you, Kevin Woo. The whole world loves you, and when there’s something between you and Kibummie-hyung, everyone sides you. What about me?! Have you guys ever considered my feelings?!”
Dongho quickly helped Soohyun in pulling Kiseop back, his arms wrapped around Kiseop’s waist. “We love you too.”
“Don’t be a hypocrite. Every time I try to talk to anyone of you, ask yourself what you gave me as a reply. You guys said to bother someone else, bother Kibummie-hyung, bother the manager. Kevin gets left alone and I get disapproving looks. So what am I?! I’m not welcomed in U-KISS, isn’t it? I should leave, shouldn’t I?” Kiseop yelled, struggling out of Dongho’s surprisingly tight grip.
“I tried.” Eli spoke quietly. “I love you, Kiseop. But I dislike how you only find Kibum-hyung. I didn’t dare tell you my feelings and you missed all the signs I sent you. You were too engrossed pulling Kibum-hyung away from Kevin.”
Kiseop blinked, calming down instantly. “You-”
“I talk to you, I try to sit next to you, I tell you to stop bothering Kibum-hyung and you said we were just siding with Kevin because he’s oh-so-weak.” Eli moved towards Kiseop and caressed his face. “You don’t listen.”
“Really?” Kiseop’s eyes softened. “I only want to belong here.”
Eli patted Dongho’s arms for him to pull away, before bringing Kiseop into his arms. “I know. We’re all sorry for making you feel so discriminated.”
Alexander wiped the tears in his eyes, moving forward to hug the duo before Soohyun and Dongho joined in. Kibum looked at his hands while Kevin bit his lips guiltily.
“Kevin...” Kibum said quietly.
“Don’t.” Kevin stood up, knowing what Kibum was about to say. He turned to look at the five before looking at Kibum and then walking away. “I can’t.”
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Okay, after ranting, I hope I can return to writing happy Kemaru. Sighs, hopefully. I'm holding NaNoWriMo for a very very short pause 'cause I'm writing the next chapter of AotCC so you guys can have an update like soon :)