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So my mom is all in my ass when I tell my 9 year old sister to stop acting like a brat. It's like she wants to yell at me for not having a fucking job and not paying rent. Her ex husband always relied on her and he still relies on her to pay most of the bills and for money. I barely ask her for ten dollars here and there. Yes I live with her but once I get on my feet I'm out of here( well with much roommate research of course). I just want to be a college student working for my better future so I won't have to whine that the low paying jobs don't hire.
She tells me not to call her when my sisters act up but then jumps down my throat when I try and tell them to behave and stop being a baby. One day she tells them to respect me and the next she lets them talk to me like I'm a piece of shit. I don't know if she hates me or she feels she is trying to get me to "grow up" which is bullshit because I have lived on my own and if I had a sane roommate I still would be livving on my own. Whatever.
I am just sick of this house but I want to go to berkeley so I'm trying to stick it out. Almost everyone is alwas in my ass and they act like its my fault alone something is not perfect but then the ex step dad likes to talk shit to me or my 17 year old sister. Usually alternates but sometimes I think she deserves it. She steals from people and acts like the world should revolve around her. My 9 year old sister can be sweet but then I remember she has half of the asshole in her so therefore she gets hard to manage too.
Saving for a trip to the east coast somewhere. I dunno where yet. Somewhere that isn't in any fucking california. Don't like the mid west either. Seems like I would be bored and hot since it will be in august. Have a couple of friends on the east coast but not really wanting to go to their states in august. I wanna go to new york but meh I don't think it's a place to go alone. I bet I would just get jacked and raped... though it would be nice to see where my pops grew up at
So I'll save as if I am going to new york since it is so expensive but at the same time still seeing where I want to go. Kinda wanna see the big easy but only during mardi gras :p so that's out haha. Probably decide by the middle of next month. Taking summer classes in june and july so it would be nice to go in august and then more classes in september. Staying busy and not having to worry about my fucking mom or anyone being so got damn negative and kill my spirit and make me as miserable as them.
She tells me not to call her when my sisters act up but then jumps down my throat when I try and tell them to behave and stop being a baby. One day she tells them to respect me and the next she lets them talk to me like I'm a piece of shit. I don't know if she hates me or she feels she is trying to get me to "grow up" which is bullshit because I have lived on my own and if I had a sane roommate I still would be livving on my own. Whatever.
I am just sick of this house but I want to go to berkeley so I'm trying to stick it out. Almost everyone is alwas in my ass and they act like its my fault alone something is not perfect but then the ex step dad likes to talk shit to me or my 17 year old sister. Usually alternates but sometimes I think she deserves it. She steals from people and acts like the world should revolve around her. My 9 year old sister can be sweet but then I remember she has half of the asshole in her so therefore she gets hard to manage too.
Saving for a trip to the east coast somewhere. I dunno where yet. Somewhere that isn't in any fucking california. Don't like the mid west either. Seems like I would be bored and hot since it will be in august. Have a couple of friends on the east coast but not really wanting to go to their states in august. I wanna go to new york but meh I don't think it's a place to go alone. I bet I would just get jacked and raped... though it would be nice to see where my pops grew up at
So I'll save as if I am going to new york since it is so expensive but at the same time still seeing where I want to go. Kinda wanna see the big easy but only during mardi gras :p so that's out haha. Probably decide by the middle of next month. Taking summer classes in june and july so it would be nice to go in august and then more classes in september. Staying busy and not having to worry about my fucking mom or anyone being so got damn negative and kill my spirit and make me as miserable as them.