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I have issues. I think I have a little bit of OCD. Especially with my hygiene and cleaning. Sometimes it drives me crazy. That OCD is kickin in right now. Yikes. But don't get me wrong, it's a mild case in my opinion. And I don't even know if I have OCD. I'm just guessing. I'm now taking medicine that is for people with Bipolar mania and/or schizophrena. No worries, I'm not crazy. You can take the medicine for other things too. I'm taking it to help me sleep better and for depression. I don't know for sure if I have depression, but its just my guess. Bringing it up was a little rough. I don't like to admit to things like that. But I've been dealing with the same depression-like problems for years. I'm talking back in my sophmore/junior year in high school. I feel like taking medicine for it would be the smartest idea. If I can't help myself (like I've been trying to) then maybe something like a magical pill can cure some of the frustrating issues that reoccur. But on the other hand, I do not like some of these side effects.
So yes, I got through my doctors appt. And it wasn't as bad as I thought it was gonna be. I get nervous with new doctors, but this lady was nice and I felt I could talk to her about stuff.
I am happy as ever (relationship wise) and it feels great to be with someone I can trust. Ryan really is the sweetest guy ever to me. This past month has flown by, yet it was so amazing. We grew much closer, share the same feelings, and are pretty much head over heels (over head) CRAZY about eachother. We click so well and I enjoy every second I'm with him. And here I started losing hope when the perfect guy for me was just an IM away.
cdwhiterabbit: yeah well i have a problem containing myself with you
cdwhiterabbit: i want everyone to know how awesome you are
cdwhiterabbit: that i'm happier than i've ever been
cdwhiterabbit: and i just feel so complete
Ditto.
I've been trying to get my list of work done. Not doing so great. I'm supposed to take the medicine my doctor gave me at night so it will knock me out, but I feel like tonight is one of those nights where I should work on stuff until I'm satisfied or can't work anymore, ha.
Whatever though, I'm anxious for tomorrow.