Obligatory Usher-In-The-New-Year post
It’s precisely 12:01 am, 1/1/2012 right now. People have been screaming outside my house for a good minute now. If I strain my ears a little, I can probably hear the fireworks in the background.
2011 has been crap. As in, I had to put up with a lot of crap. There wasn’t much of this learning-experience thing from the whole ordeals I’ve been put through. Still, as with every year, I suppose there’s always shit to go through. Don’t pretend we’ve ever had a perfect year. Except for the time when you were like, maybe 1. Or 2.
At the same time though, things balanced out. I think we can all agree that no matter what, some good things pull through. I’ve done dangerous and equally stupid things this year. Dangerous and stupid in the sense that I wore a surgical mask to work to feign sick because it was my last day and I was goddamn lazy about it. (I was probably found out, but I had bought an MC to call in sick. Expensive piece of paper too.)
I started at a new school this year. There was graduation from my previous alma mater which was more Hades from Hell than loving mother, and as Freshman in completely alien environment that is more or less filled with just as many aliens and unexplained walking phenomenons. That said, I don’t particularly like my school. I don’t particularly like my class or my course, or the subjects that I’ve taken, and even now, I still wonder if I should pull out before I’ve wasted years of my life, investing myself into this thing that I dislike. At the same time though, I tell myself that it’ll be worth it, and it’s for the greater good. I think it might just work out.
There was bullshit, and there was awesome shit. Just weeks ago I headed off to Japan, yet another completely new and exotic experience that was both enriching and brilliant. I met new people, opinions subject to further observations. I fell out of love with Japanese culture and was thrust back into it the same year.
My geek meter also hit an exponential increase. There’s watching things I’ve never thought in a million years I would watch, and there’s making public references to things. Actually, I’m not sure if I did become even geekier and hikikomori-like, or if I just became more comfortable in it.
Another thing that I’ve almost never done was to watch television. This year I’ve seen at least five, whole series of dramas. In 2010 my “has-watched” list was 0. I continue to insist that I’m not in any fandoms. Being in a fandom means having to talk to people. I haven’t done that. Maybe I will in 2012. Who knows? Maybe I won’t be such a shellfish in 2012.
I played the entire AC series this year. I started reading Leviathan this year. I hit the gyms a total of three times, put on a good amount of weight. I turned 18. I started labelling people whom I thought to be inferior as “plankton” and gave no to little thought towards them. I decided that my instinct and judgement was worthy of being listened to (look at the number of times I met someone and my first thought was “they must be a bitch”, decided to stop being so judgmental but they turn out to be bitches anyway).
2011 has been a decent year. Bordering on fantastic even, because nothing’s perfect. I think a balanced year is a good year, so here’s to 2012 being just as fair.