Things are falling back into place. ^_^
Things seem to be shaping up a bit...
I took a two-week vacation to Ft. Collins. Got unclogged. Got inspired. Found myself waking up at peace...
So when I came back, things were a little better. Before I left, Sisco and I went to get coffee to try out the whole no-pressure, try to be friends and remain utterly platonic and rather superficial method. It worked really well. We also called an emergency band meeting to work out the relational kinks that came from adding new people and the obvious, being my breaking up with the guitarist. That went pretty well also.
So i got back from vacation yesterday, and we had a band practice today... and it was phenomenal. It was as though we were all channeling something. We got a drummer, too! I think he was the missing link. It was incredible... Sisco started playing some random stuff like he always does, and then JP (new drummer) started playing a drum thing to go with it, and Chris jumped in, and Jes jumped in, and I jumped in... and it sounded like we had all known the song all our lives. It was spiritual. So we have the skeleton of a new song, and hopefully it will be finished within the next few practices. ^_^
Things are getting better, tension is leaving, and our band is totally rising from the ashes. And for the first time, I'm sure we're going places.
BTW, tentative show sometime in August (next month) at Rock Island. ^_^ As soon as I learn more, I'll tell all! Or go to the band page and it will be there as well. ^_^
While I was in Ft. Collins, I came to the realization that I don't need someone I have fun with, or someone I get along with, or someone who's pretty or sexy or good in bed. I need someone inside my head. I met this kid, Dorian, up there, and it was insane... from the very second I met him, we were finishing each others' sentences. It was really nice. And after realizing that it was just the same way with Chris R. (the longest relationship I've had, not including long distance), I also realized that it's what I need. I hate trying to explain myself, because more often than not, my thoughts are so abstract and skewed that it doesn't matter to other people, or it doesn't make sense to them. My music makes sense, and I wish I could speak in the same language I write my songs in. But I can't. So I need someone who's already inside my head and knows what I'm going to say, and who's gone through all the shit I have, and who has the same philosophies as me...
I suppose it sounds like I'm in love with myself, that I want someone just like me. I really don't. That's irritating as well. I want someone with their own personality quirks and habits. Doesn't matter if they're introverted or extroverted, or if they like country music. I don't care. I just want someone in my head.
heh. I sound like a nut.
Well, that's all... I wanted to write that down so I can go back and read it sometime. That's all. Nothing really relevant about it, at least not in any present circumstances or in terms of any guys I know. I just wanted to remember that.
I took a two-week vacation to Ft. Collins. Got unclogged. Got inspired. Found myself waking up at peace...
So when I came back, things were a little better. Before I left, Sisco and I went to get coffee to try out the whole no-pressure, try to be friends and remain utterly platonic and rather superficial method. It worked really well. We also called an emergency band meeting to work out the relational kinks that came from adding new people and the obvious, being my breaking up with the guitarist. That went pretty well also.
So i got back from vacation yesterday, and we had a band practice today... and it was phenomenal. It was as though we were all channeling something. We got a drummer, too! I think he was the missing link. It was incredible... Sisco started playing some random stuff like he always does, and then JP (new drummer) started playing a drum thing to go with it, and Chris jumped in, and Jes jumped in, and I jumped in... and it sounded like we had all known the song all our lives. It was spiritual. So we have the skeleton of a new song, and hopefully it will be finished within the next few practices. ^_^
Things are getting better, tension is leaving, and our band is totally rising from the ashes. And for the first time, I'm sure we're going places.
BTW, tentative show sometime in August (next month) at Rock Island. ^_^ As soon as I learn more, I'll tell all! Or go to the band page and it will be there as well. ^_^
While I was in Ft. Collins, I came to the realization that I don't need someone I have fun with, or someone I get along with, or someone who's pretty or sexy or good in bed. I need someone inside my head. I met this kid, Dorian, up there, and it was insane... from the very second I met him, we were finishing each others' sentences. It was really nice. And after realizing that it was just the same way with Chris R. (the longest relationship I've had, not including long distance), I also realized that it's what I need. I hate trying to explain myself, because more often than not, my thoughts are so abstract and skewed that it doesn't matter to other people, or it doesn't make sense to them. My music makes sense, and I wish I could speak in the same language I write my songs in. But I can't. So I need someone who's already inside my head and knows what I'm going to say, and who's gone through all the shit I have, and who has the same philosophies as me...
I suppose it sounds like I'm in love with myself, that I want someone just like me. I really don't. That's irritating as well. I want someone with their own personality quirks and habits. Doesn't matter if they're introverted or extroverted, or if they like country music. I don't care. I just want someone in my head.
heh. I sound like a nut.
Well, that's all... I wanted to write that down so I can go back and read it sometime. That's all. Nothing really relevant about it, at least not in any present circumstances or in terms of any guys I know. I just wanted to remember that.