Edwina...
I want to restrict so so so badly now. I've done less exercise than I have in the past couple of days and I regret not doing as many sit ups. My stomach is a mess. I look at it right now and I feel so shameful and gross. The Edwina voice told me today that people at my work were starting to take notice of my gained pounds. I hate this insecurity I really do. Its old and stupid. If people really want to be around me they will be and it will have nothing to do with what I eat and what I don't eat how much I work out or not work out. In the end it will be about my wonderful(yeah right....) personality. I mean it has to get better right?