Or So I Thought
Title: Or So I Thought
Author: ryoma_nakamada
Genre: Angst
Pairing: One Sided Nakajima/Shida, Yamada/Shida
Rating: G
Word Count: 362
Summary: Yuto's thoughts on YamaShi lol
A/N: Outlined from a very recent dream. Not the exact happening but the thought is along those lines. Written in my phone, transferred while training so grammar checks were not made. LOL. I don't ship NakaShi. It's just that the pair fits the situation.
It was just a dream, or so I thought. Things could have been, but . There's hope for us, but I should've known better.
At first, I didn't mind the rumors that you liked him too since I wasn't the type to believe in them. I told myself that Chinen and Kamiki were just plain idiots for spreading such issue. But I already know that he has taken a liking on you, he's just bashful. I was even forcing him to court you already. Most of the time, I would tease you guys but then, you just don;t know the torment my heart is in with what I have been doing. You could even nominate me and I could win a Nobel Prize in the field of Martyrdom. Though being given a Nobel Prize is great, I'd still prefer having you instead. But well, there's nothing else I can do.
As they say, to see is to believe. It was just too bad that Destiny had to slap that to my face. I saw you guys at the mall on time, strolling. It would've been normal for friends but then again, you guys were holding hands with pair shirts. It was too painful to watch that I could shed my skin off and roll myself in salt. It indeed is painful, especially since he is my friend too. If only I could teach your heart to love me instead, I would've done so.
All I wished was then for my self-induced agony would end, but I should've never trusted Destiny to give me a break. The both of you even visited me at the hospital when I was admitted for having dengue. You even brought fruits and flowers. I would've preferred you bringing crown for the dead since I could feel my heart dying with jealousy. Even at that moment, I was wishing my platelet count would drop to negative so I could just bleed to death. There's just no difference to that with seeing you guys together.
You're sweet towards me, but you love him. You love me too, but your heart belongs to him. How could I contend to that?
Author: ryoma_nakamada
Genre: Angst
Pairing: One Sided Nakajima/Shida, Yamada/Shida
Rating: G
Word Count: 362
Summary: Yuto's thoughts on YamaShi lol
A/N: Outlined from a very recent dream. Not the exact happening but the thought is along those lines. Written in my phone, transferred while training so grammar checks were not made. LOL. I don't ship NakaShi. It's just that the pair fits the situation.
It was just a dream, or so I thought. Things could have been, but . There's hope for us, but I should've known better.
At first, I didn't mind the rumors that you liked him too since I wasn't the type to believe in them. I told myself that Chinen and Kamiki were just plain idiots for spreading such issue. But I already know that he has taken a liking on you, he's just bashful. I was even forcing him to court you already. Most of the time, I would tease you guys but then, you just don;t know the torment my heart is in with what I have been doing. You could even nominate me and I could win a Nobel Prize in the field of Martyrdom. Though being given a Nobel Prize is great, I'd still prefer having you instead. But well, there's nothing else I can do.
As they say, to see is to believe. It was just too bad that Destiny had to slap that to my face. I saw you guys at the mall on time, strolling. It would've been normal for friends but then again, you guys were holding hands with pair shirts. It was too painful to watch that I could shed my skin off and roll myself in salt. It indeed is painful, especially since he is my friend too. If only I could teach your heart to love me instead, I would've done so.
All I wished was then for my self-induced agony would end, but I should've never trusted Destiny to give me a break. The both of you even visited me at the hospital when I was admitted for having dengue. You even brought fruits and flowers. I would've preferred you bringing crown for the dead since I could feel my heart dying with jealousy. Even at that moment, I was wishing my platelet count would drop to negative so I could just bleed to death. There's just no difference to that with seeing you guys together.
You're sweet towards me, but you love him. You love me too, but your heart belongs to him. How could I contend to that?