breakups are so like me...

[ryeouknim]

He said he's moving, Said he doesn't have a choice. So for the first time in a long time i went back to sleep in my room. He called, asking why I left, asking if i won't be sleeping in our room. I told him, "i want to be alone tonight".

"Why?", he asked. And i couldn't answer. "Why do you sound so sad?"

"im not sad." i answered, and he told me the words he's always said.

"You can lie to me but you don't have to fool yourself."

I hate it that he knows me all too well. "I just wanna see if i'm able to sleep alone. It feels like it's been a long time since i last did."

The line was silent for quite a while, before he soon answered with as much melancholy as i knew i sounded. "i'm just moving a little more than a few blocks away."

"why does it feel like you're breaking up with me?" i asked, and i know how unfair it sounded.

This night i'm gonna sleep alone on my bed, in my own room. I'm gonna pretend i'm used to sleeping alone, i'm gonna pretend our room doesn't exist.

I'm gonna sleep early coz i don't wanna think about how sad i'd be trying to get used to sleeping alone. Again.

I do hope it's not a breakup tho. I invested too much feels in this relationship thank you very much.

FML.