Feb 11, 2005 10:34
well the other day me and jessica actually got to really talk and she cried a whole bunch and i realized i love her and i want to be with her but i dont know ah tshe wants. i really hate school now i mean im thinking aboutjust doin school on the net cause i hate goin. there is way to much drama for to deal with not just witheveryone else just its too much for me. it bothers me so much that now me and jessica are really done all these people like her and shit it its gonna be harder for me to get her back.i dont know who she likes or kinda likes or nothin cause she doesnt tell me anything.then its like peopl that i always said like her and she denied it now theyve said they do its bull.thats really what icant deal with is all the shit that goes along with bein with someone. its like everyone found out about everything so fast and just want to move in. its crazy.people are gettin mad at eachother over stupuid shit and being retarded. everyone bein bitchy and immature. i hate high school.i eman im not really involved in any pf i just hear about it and its so dumb.people who have been your friend since the begining are now nothing cause you heard they said some shit fuck that.jessica sorry i didnt say bye to you i just had to get out of there.i wan tto be with jessica i just dont want all the drama that i will have to dal witrh now with other guys and shit.i got drunk on wednesday with my friend larry then i had to go to school and i went to school kinda tipsy and shit but it was cool.we got to talk alot and stayed up late with jagger and tturkey so it was cool. i had alot of fujn.today this girl that i drive to work gave me gas money and she gave me a 2 dollar bill. it is cool it looks new.is that better chris i explained my title.2 dollar bill,wild turkey and on the jagger bottle there is a buck.ive deicided to get a keyboard instead of turntables cause dark asylum needs a keyboardist and i know how to play the piano a little and so i could play the keyboard and the bass at the same time.i dont know it might happen it mioght not.i hope soimethin does i need to do somethin with music and my life.im just tired of the drama i need to run away or beat someones ass.i have to get out some anger may i should go shoot a gun or somethin. i need to hurt someone or somehtin.im gettin drunk today.fuck this